Chapter 9

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I told everyone- Riley, Farkle, Smackle, Zay, and Josh- what happened. Everything after that went by fast up until it was 4:30. For some reason, I found myself pacing.
"Are you okay?" Becca asks me.

"Fine totally fine." I'm here watching Becca and Bradley while El and Lizzie go get Lucas. Right now Becca's holding Bradley.

"You don't seem fine." I sit down next to her on the couch and she gives me Bradley.

"I am. I just don't want to be the one who has to change Bradley." She nods her head seeming doubtful.

The next 30 minutes went as slow as possible, but eventually it came. The door opens and Becca and I turn our heads. El, Lucas, and Lizzie walk in. I stand up holding Bradley and Lucas' mom walks over to me to get him. Lucas walks into his room and I follow him.
I walk in and stand by the door. "Hey, huckleberry."

He gives a little smile and nods his head while saying, "Maya." He looks every where but directly at me.

All of sudden I can't help but blurt out what I've been wondering all day, "are you mad at me?"

He finally looks at me and takes in a deep breath, "I can't be mad at you, Maya."

"Then what are you?" I ask him.

"I don't know, Maya." I move over to sit down next to him. It's silent for a minute.

"I'm sorry, Luke. I know you don't want to say it because you'll think it'll hurt me, but it won't. I'm sorry I didn't pick up the phone. If I knew you were in the hospital I would've dropped everything." Before I knew it, I was on the verge of crying. He must've been able to tell because he draped his arm over my shoulder.

"Exactly Maya. That's why I can't be mad at you. You would've dropped everything for me if you had known." He pauses for a moment, "if anything it's my fault. You told me if anything happened not to call you and I did."

"Emotionally. If you had gotten hurt I don't what I would've done." I closed my eyes as I lean against him, and he rested his head on top of mine.

I thought about it all over again... losing him. I've been trying to deny it since he came to me broken hearted a month ago. I shift my body, causing Lucas to lift his head up. "Look huckleberry it's killing me that you're not yelling at me because if I were you I would hate me right now." I get up and now I'm walking back and forth in front of lucas, yelling. "Why aren't you yelling at me Lucas you should hate me for this!"

"Maya stop."

"No Lucas why can't you just yell at me for this! I screwed up big time! You could've died-"

"Would ya stop."

"And I wouldn't have been there so if you're not gonna yell at me-"

He stands up and I gasp because the next thing I knew. He kissed me. And because I wanted to, I kissed back. It lasts for what feels like forever, but truly is seconds. We pull apart and then I snap back into reality.

Josh is my boyfriend. I love Josh because... I don't really know why anymore. "I'm gonna go take a shower," I point upstairs to my aparment, "I'll be back."

"Wait, Maya." He grabs my hand making me stop. Lucas please it's hard enough as it is. I can feel the tears coming back. He turns me toward him. "What was that?"

" I don't know, Luke," I hesitate for a moment because I knew I was gonna regret what I was about to say, "but it can't happen again." I let go and run in to my apartment. I get my clothes and go to the bathroom. As soon as I turned the shower, I couldn't hold it in anymore I cried and cried.

Because, of course, I like Lucas; he's a good guy.

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CRYING 😭 MY LUCAYA HEART UGHHH. SO SORRY KILLED MYSELF TOO.

Anyway hope you guys enjoyed.

ALSO sorry this one's shorter than the others it's just I felt needed to stop there or I would've been crying a river.

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