Together [GMW]

Chapter 26

I've been avoiding Lucas since the break up. He's been a bit pissed because of the reason, but he understood-ish. I told Zay and Riley. Zay thought it was stupid, and if he could he would slap some sense into me. Riley, on the other hand, looked so happy she could've explode.
  
   Farkle and Lucas were walking up to the bay window, where Riley and I were.
"Hey," Farkle said.
"Hi," I looked over at Lucas who wasn't looking at me, and, to be honest, it hurt.
He turned to Riley, "hey." And that hurt even worse.
"Hi," she said, smiling.
"What are you two gonna do for our free time," Farkle asked. "I'm gonna go check out the planetarium."
"I'll check it out with you, Farkle," Riley said.
"Okay. What about you, Maya?"
I glance over at Lucas, "I'll stay in." Farkle nodded and headed out with Riley. Lucas sits down next to me. "I'm really sorry, huckleberry."
"Then we shouldn't have to lie."
I wrap my arms around his neck and kiss him long enough for him to wrap his arms around my waist. "I love you, Lucas," I slip in between kisses.
He pulls away but left his hands where they were, "I can't lie to them everyday."
"I don't want to either, but you told me to talk to Riley and she was really hurting. I just, I can't hurt her like that." He pulls me in closer, snuggling my head into his chest and his head into my neck.
"I know you're just trying to be this thoughtful, caring best friend, but that doesn't mean you have to make yourself more miserable." Before I can say anything back he kisses my neck, sending tingles down my back, "I love you, too, Maya."
I get up and smile at Lucas, "I'm gonna go get hot chocolate, you want some?"
"I would love some." I got to the dining area, made hot chocolate, and headed back to Lucas.

I was walking back when I noticed Lucas was talking to a girl, I can't tell from behind who. I sit down next to him, hand him his cocoa, and realize who it is. "Avery?"
"Maya, hey, oh my gosh. I haven't seen you in forever. How are you," she gets up and hugs me. I hug back awkwardly and quite shocked. Avery is Lucas's first ex girlfriend they dated from 8th to 9th grade til she had to move. Since the only reason they broke up was because she had to move, he didn't really stop liking her up til Missy.
"I'm good. W-what are you doing here?"
She does that laugh that Lucas always talked about and replies, "my family doesn't live that far from here so we decided to vacation here for the next 2 weeks." Great. "How long are you guys staying?"
"Two weeks, too," Lucas says.
"That's great. Maybe we can catch up sometime, but right now I have to go, my family's waiting for me," she points to the other side of the room where her family was, "I've really missed you, Lucas." And with that she walked away. Usually I don't get jealous, or at least I never did with Josh. There could be a girl literally clinging to him and all on him and I wouldn't be jealous. I knew he wouldn't cheat and the same thing goes with Lucas, so why do I have the obsessive need to make out with Lucas in front of Avery.

Over the next three days, Lucas was flirting with Avery. Actually, I don't know, he could've been hanging out with Ryder, but Avery was definitely flirting with him. She's not doing it in a slutty way. She's doing it in a sly way, and since Lucas is clueless he probably doesn't even know.

Lucas comes up to me and sits down, "hey gorgeous. " I look down into my palms thinking about how this conversation was gonna go. "Maya what's wrong?
Still looking at my hands I tell him how I've been feeling. From how I felt about the 'break-up' to my theory about Avery. Yes, I know, that he didn't like the idea in the first place either, but I'm not doing it because I want to, I'm doing it for Riley. And yeah the reason seemed shallow, but its how I felt. I loved showing the world I have Lucas. I love having something or in this case someone always there for me. I loved telling the world that it can fuck off because life's going great. The thing is, if life's go great for me while making someone else feel horrible, I don't think it's worth it. Because I've been on the receiving end of that and it's not fair.
   "How about this? We talk to Riley about us and see if we can get her to feel better about the situation." I nod. "Okay, Farkle and her should be back in like 15 minutes. So what do you want to do in the mean time?"
I smile as I look up at him, "can we cuddle?"
   "How about you sing one of your songs?" I roll my eyes. I don't hate singing I hate singing my own songs. I just think people will hate it, but this is Lucas.
   "Yeah, sure, but not out here in my room." I get up and we go to my room.

   I look through my sing book and pick one of my newer songs, Shadows. It is one of the more depressing songs I've written, but I did write it around the time of Lucas being in the hospital. I sing the first couple lines to him.

"We all got nightmares and no dreams
We look for someone to believe in us
And show us the way
And make it okay
The world can be dangerous
There's something so rare in your veins
Not a single thing I would change
And oh, if you only knew how I see you
Would you come alive again
Alive again
I need you to understand
I don't mind your shadows
'Cause they disappear in the light
I don't mind your shadows
'Cause they look a lot like mine
And listen to me
It's okay to be afraid
Just walk like you're never alone
I don't mind your shadows
Your shadows, baby I don't"

"I love it. How about another one, " Lucas asks.
"Don't push it, Sundance," I get up and put the book back in to my suitcase. "Can we cuddle now?" He scoots to the head of the bed and opens his arms. "Yay!" I crawl up the bed to him and lay my head down on his chest.

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ABSOLUTELY 100% IN LOVE WITH SHADOWS AND MIRAGE

Also I might end this book soon and do regular updates did my new book goals and then towards the end of that book I'll do a sequel for this one