Together [GMW]

Chapter 19

*Present*

   El is still out getting food, Riley's in Philadelphia, the reason she's not here right now, and Zay's on his way. So I'm just here worrying about Lucas all by myself. Secretly mad at Riley, even though I have no right to be. She didn't know. The only people Lucas told were me, Zay, and Missy. He didn't like telling people and since I was usually with him if anything were to happen. I'd know what do or I'd have an epipen.
 
   I hear a knock on the door and open it. "Hey Zay," I say,  giving him a hug.
   "Hey Maya," he says into my neck, still holding me. "How're you doing?"
   "I just got him back Zay," I tell him,  "but thanks."
   "For what," he asks, letting go of me.
   I walk over to the couch and sit down, facing Lucas. "Calling him last night," I answer. "If you didn't he wouldn't know how I feel and I wouldn't know he feels."
   "And what does he feel?" He walks over and sits next to me.
   "He likes me back." I rest my head on his shoulder and he wraps an arm around me. "I feel like it's my fault,"  I mutter.
   "Maya, you know it isn't."
   "Think about it. His life's going fine. The DAY I tell him how I feel and vice versa he gets put in the hospital."
   "Maya it would've happened anyway," he reassures me, not making me feel better.
   "I know I shouldn't be, but I'm mad at her," I confess while changing the topic. He doesn't say anything,  just sighs. "What?"
   "Even though you shouldn't I am too."
   "Did he tell her?" He shakes his no. "He should've and he knows that." It stays silent for a while.
   "How bad is it?"
   "They don't know if he'll..." I really needed Riley right now, mad at her or not. I needed hope. I know hope's for suckers, but I need it. I need him.

   Shortly after El came in with our food. "After I eat I have to go," El tells us.
   "What, why," Zay and I ask. Zay's now sitting on the other side of the room.
   "I can only leave Rebecca and Bradley alone for a couple of hours," she explains. I nod my head while eating my food. "So if anything happens call me. " Zay and I both promised, but nothing happened.

   It stayed that way for three weeks. During that time, Riley and I saw each other. Of course, I was still mad at her, but at the same time she'd be mad at me for kissing her boyfriend. We stood by each other. The whole baseball team came, even Josh. Which I gotta admit was awkward as hell. Farkle and Zay alternated days while I came everyday and Riley almost everyday. The only reason they didn't come everyday was because of school and activities. Baseball for the Zay, cheerleading for Riley, and whatever Farkle does in his lab. I just bring my sketchpad and lyric journal here so I won't miss out.
   His dad came too when he got back from work. The only reason he came was probably because of Lizzie. It was weird because he loved her so much and any person could see that. He'd do anything to make her happy, but he still treated Lucas the way he did. Of course, not when she was around because last time she kicked him out for a month, but still I never understood that part.

   Eventually, the doctors started to wonder if he would wake up, and since he had little brain activity they thought he wouldn't.  So I, being the idiotic girl I am, had hope. Hope that these doctors were crushing. They thought that if he could breath on his on his wake-up rate would rise. If he couldn't... Of course, I thought his mom would say 'no, you can't cut off my son's life support', she didn't. And I was the only one who didn't seem scared. Maybe I didn't have enough hope or everyone else thought if he's he's gone no point in holding him back, but that wasn't a choice for me. He's my brother, my best friend, the guy I had feelings for. I was crying and moping over him for weeks. I had finally gotten him back, just like my dad. Just to have him ripped away from me, again. I couldn't bare the thought of losing our friendship for what could've been what a month or two. How on earth was I gonna live knowing he was gone...

Forever

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   800 words but I thought it was best to stop it there.

   I cried too, your not the only one.

Conflicts on whether or not to post once a week or every three days. So I'll post in between that time period