Together [GMW]

Chapter 17

Once we got to Topanga's, Smackle and Farkle were already there. I sit down on the big couch with Riley on my right and an empty space on my left. The reason no one's on my left is because Lucas and Josh are debating on who's going to sit there. It's getting on my nerves.
"I'll sit next to Maya she is my girlfriend," Josh continued.
"I'll sit next to her since-"
"You know what," I interrupt "how about Josh sits next to me."
"Ha." he says.
"And Lucas you can sit here I'll sit next to Zay." I get up and move over to Zay. I was going to sit on the arm of the chair, but he got up and sat there. "Thanks." After that we talked about the game and how they won, we got some shakes. It was the same as usual except for the tension between Josh and Lucas.
"Hello," Josh just got a phone call from his sister, the only reason he's living here. She lives near NYU, where he's taking college classes, but he's still in his senior year at our school. "Yeah I'll be right there." he tells her. "Sorry guys I have to go."
"I'll go with you," I tell him.
"Maya, I'll take you home," Lucas offers. I can see Josh get jealous.
"Thanks Ranger Rick, I'm just gonna talk to Josh outside first." I give him a small smile and lead Josh outside. "Josh I love you, but you have to stop beimg jealous."
He crosses his arms then says, "Maya, I'm not jealous."
"Sure." I give him a kiss on the lips and a quick hug. "Okay, I'll call you afterwards and tell you everything that happened." He nods.
"I love you," he tells me.
"I love you, too. Now go," I say, giving him a little shove. I head back inside and we continue to talk.

It's been thirty minutes since Josh left and we've finally decided to go home. I was walking with Lucas, Riley was walking with Farkle and Smackle, and Zay walked home by himself.
"Have you decided who you're going to pick," he asked.
"Yeah, I've always known."
"Who is it?"
"I'm not saying."
"If you know why don't you tell us."
I look at him and sigh."I don't want to see the outcome."

The rest of the day went by quick and so did Sunday. Before I knew it it was Monday. I woke up, changed into my clothes, and headed up to Lucas's room.

"Hey Ranger Rick." I say, climbing in through his window.
"Hey shortstack." I glare at him as I sit on his bed.
"How was your date with Riley," I asked.
"It was okay, but I don't know if we should go on another one," he confesses.
"What's the deciding factor?" He looks at me and shrugs. Even though I don't want him to, I tell him, "give it a try. You never know she might be your extraordinary relationship."
"And Josh might be yours," he tells me. We walk out of his room and head to school.

As we walked in to school he asked me a question, "so who'd you pick?"
"I'll tell you after school."
"You have detention after school, " he reminds me.
"Right," I say, "after school I will stop by your place then I'll go tell Josh. Okay?"
"Okay," he responds. And with that we head to first period together.

I got through school and now I'm in detention. It's not that bad the teacher's super chill about what we do. Dave's in here with me and we're talking about life while we're on our phones. "So let me get this straight. You," he nods his head, "and Sarah." he nods his head again. I can't help but smile for some reason.
"For the third time. Yes Sarah and I are dating have been for a month," he reiterates. "anyway back to you. How're you and Lucas and Josh," he asks.
I take a deep breath and sigh, "I don't know how I'm gonna do it Dave," I say, leaning my head on his shoulder.

I still have no clue, but I'm out of time. Detentions over now I have to go tell Lucas. Tell him who I chose. It took me about 15 minutes but I got there, sadly. I go up to the door and knock. It takes about a minute for someone to come. That someone being Luc. "Hey,"
"Hey," he replies.
"I've made my decision-"
He cuts me off "Actually," he says, "I've made a decision." I take a deep breath.
"What is it," I ask.
He takes a deep breath too. I don't know if its because he's scared or if he's sad or disappointed but he does. "I don't think we should be friends." I look at him confused, as if I missed something.
"What?"
"If you were gonna choose me you wouldn't have waited so long. So, I'll do it myself. I'll choose."
"You don't know that, Luc."
"Well now we'll never know." he pauses like he's waiting for me to respond, but I have no words. No clue what to say because maybe he did me a favor. "You should go tell Josh, " and with that he closes the door. My heart drops and my eyes start to water. I take another deep breath and close my eyes right before heading to Josh's.

As soon as I got there I knocked on the door and Josh appeared. "Maya." before I get the chance to say anything he says, "I don't think we should continue." my heart does... nothing. It doesn't drop or hurt.
I was compelled to say 'why', but instead I said, "okay. " we just awkwardly stood there. My mind still thinking about Lucas. My mind just thinking You should've just told him your choice instead of feeling like I lost him. Because at least he'd know I'd had no choice. He decided on his own to leave me and I don't know if I could forgive myself for that.

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Notice how she said "forgive myself" and not 'forgive him'

Anyway I'll post the next part in a week which will be a time skip forward a couple weeks after the whole debacle. So see you then 😙❤️