The Band I Thought I Knew // Liam Payne {Book 1}

Chapter 21

I take the mac and cheese off the stove and start putting it into the Styrofoam bowls we bought. I give us both a nice amount then let the remaining sit on the stove. I take the bowl to Kessler before digging into mine. I'm so hungry I could probably eat a cow.

"So did Joey ever call back." I shake my head

"I don't want to talk about it" I sigh. This subject makes me uncomfortable. I would rather it not be brought up in conversation either.

"So has Liam called or talked to you since yesterday" I had gotten a ride to the airport and I saw them off. Kessler was sleeping and I snuck out, she still doesn't know that I saw them off.

"He hasn't called me yet" i say then my phone starts ringing. I swallow the food in my mouth before going over and answering it.

"Hello"

"Hey Kira its Liam"

"Hey"

"Well I just wanted to let you know that we will be landing soon and i will send you some pictures"

"Cool, I wish I could be there"

"Me too, other wise I wouldn't be as bored as I am right now on this plane" he chuckles. I smile, I can't get over his laugh.

"Sir please turn off your cell phone" I hear on the other end

"Well, I have to go, I will talk to you soon"

"Okay"

"Bye"

"Bye" I end the call then throw the phone on the bed. I sit down and look at my hands.

"Kira its gonna be okay, he will be back before you know it"

"I suppose you're right" I say with a little smile but then my lip quivers and I look up at her with tears in my eyes "but that doesn't help the hurt now" I sniff and I stand up and embrace her in a hug. I sob into her shoulder, she just rubs my back. Its all she can do for me at this point. I just have to suck it up and deal with it. But I don't want to suck it up, I know crying over someone who just came into my life isn't right. I can't feel that strongly about someone so early, but to me those who say they don't understand this feeling dont know what its like to long for this person. This need for that person. The undying pain that takes over you when they aren't around. Its all part of something so unreal and you hate it, but you love it at the same time.

"How can I miss him so much already"

"Well I could tell you the answer but you won't want to hear it" she says and I sniff "you love him" I shut my eyes then sniff again.

"I just want to have him here" I say out loud "is that selfish"

"It is," she pulls away from me "but that's what love is, its selfish, and weird but its the best feeling in the world"

After that little conversation she said that she was going to go out, she was meeting a friend of hers and she offered but I didn't want to. So now I am sitting on the bed just looking at the ceiling. I should have gone, maybe it would get my mind off him. There is a knock at the door and I go over and open it slowly.

"Hey Kira, can we talk"

"Do you think that is a good idea after the whole incident"

"I really want to talk about that, can I come in please" I look around, like someone is gonna tell me the right answer.

"I suppose" I move and he walks in the room, he pulls out a chair at the table and waits. He moves his eyes toward the chair and I sit down. He pushes me in but I keep my hands in my lap. He sits down across from me, his eyes show concern and worry.