The Band I Thought I Knew // Liam Payne {Book 1}

Chapter 33

We have arrived in Nevada a little over an hour ago. The drive was sort of long in my opinion but its something I will get used to. After the show in California a little over a week an a half ago Louis was actually able to rent a car and take us to meet Freddie. Of course no matter how hard Brianna tried to resist Louis insisted that we meet him. I mean what is the harm in meeting him, as if he will actually remember this interaction as an infants. But regardless of this argument between them we all had a chance to meet him. Well meet and reminisce with him, all the boys have met him.

The interaction between Kessler and her boyfriends son is concerning though. I watched her, she seemed so uninterested in meeting this baby who has done nothing to her. Freddie is the only innocent one in the whole entire situation. I mean Louis got drunk and Brianna was taking advantage of that situation, and then you have Louis trying to take care of his son, Brianna barely letting him and now you have Louis trying to expose his girlfriend who he really seems to like to his son in case they end up married.

But here is Kessler who is pretty much rejecting this child and to be fair it's not her responsibility to accept him but I mean if she likes Louis that much she should at least try. The entire time I think I was the only one of the two of us who bonded with him and even though I don't particularly care for Brianna she was nicer to me who was involved with her son than the person who should have been involved. It's disappointing because Kessler said she likes Louis but she is putting on a facade as if she doesn't. I don't know what her angle is but I need to figure it out before someone gets hurt.

Since the show isn't actually until tomorrow, Liam had promised another fun filled day for us. He said that since i am underage, I technically cant gamble in a casino but we can explore and tour the building. Liam said he had called ahead and made some arrangements to do a little mock session in the casino but I'm really not interested in gambling anyway. Liam also said once that is done we get to see the Hoover dam. That is gonna be really cool too I mean to see this giant wall holding all of this water without breaking is astonishing.

Liam and the boys decided they were gonna go get breakfast before we start the day. As I sit on the bus alone with just Jon and the bus driver I sigh. Jon looks over at me from the small couch located behind the bunks. He sits on one end and I sit on the other, he turns to me and rests his head against his fist on the back of the couch.

"What's the matter, tour life not all its cracked up to be"

"No I'm having fun, I just can't believe this is real life sometimes" he reaches over and pinches my wrist and I squeal, I rub the spot he just pinched and scowl playfully "Ass"

"Least you know you're not dreaming" I nod. I instantly go back to the fact that it's him. That Liam Payne is my boyfriend, I am on tour with my all time favorite band and I am dating a member of said band. A life with him flashes before my eyes, the possibility of marriage and children with him, the possibility of finding a forever in him I take a deep breath as tears start falling down my cheeks, I shake my head, Wow, it's possible.

"Kira what's wrong" I let out a shaky chuckle, before biting my lip. I can't meet Jon's eyes, I turn my head away from him because I don't like letting people see me cry. I feel like I am in my weakest state when I am crying. I can be strong but I can only be strong for so long.

"I am just thinking about him, he and I haven't even been together a full year and I just want him forever" I whisper, I lay my head back against the couch looking up at the ceiling of the bus.

"Do you really mean that"

"I will forever mean it, I will fully and unconditionally mean it"

"We see it you know," he starts "we see the way you look at each other, it's not the same as the others, he always gave him the same look you give him. They never gave it back, but now he is finally getting that look back"