Perfection In The Imperfect

chapter 14-complete

~Kendra

"I can't do it!" I cried to Axl.
"Why did you give up the first time? You did therapy for one year, and gave up. It takes at least two years to actually stand, and you just gave up."
"I didn't get any results. They said that there is no way that I would ever stand. They discouraged me... I trust people too much! They made me believe that I would never walk again. That I lost my walking skills!" I'm starting to get mad.
"Kendra!" Axl shouted. Noted: He's very intimidating.
"Stop getting mad at yourself. Yes, you trust people too much, but that's why you are you. Now stop getting angry at yourself, and start loving yourself." I don't know what to say. I'm speechless.
"Did you just give me a compliment?" I whispered.

The last time someone gave me a compliment was the day of the accident.

My step-father told me to have a great day at school. He said I looked beautiful that day.

I came out of my thoughts, and saw Axl punching the wall, so hard that there is now a gaping hole.

Axl stomped out of the room, leaving me alone. Was it something I said?

~Axl

"Did you give me a compliment?" She whispered so soft, that I could barely hear her.

She zoned out. What am I doing? I should be training her, and now I'm sitting here, thinking that maybe I should listen to my own motivational comments. I feel furious, but I don't know why I think I forgot my pills this morning, and I have to relax before she gets scared. I stand up, knowing she is not looking at what I'm doing, and I punched the wall to relax a little, and ran out to my bedroom where my pills are.

I hope that I don't forget them any time soon, I might lose Kendra because of it.

My ODD might hurt people again, it already hurt enough people as it is, that's why I don't tell many people, and take pills to control it.