My Secret Angel

Chapter ten

*** a/n: so to see if this works out, I think im going to do this chapter in Xanders POV. You guys can wait to find out about Raynes date lol***

Chapter 10

"Confusion"

XANDERS POV***************************

It had been almost a week since I last saw her and I wasn't any closer to getting the answers I needed than I was two weeks ago when she first fell into my arms. I had been around a very long time and had never felt anything like what I felt around her.

I tried to keep away until she turned up, like she always does, then it was hard to walk away. She wasn't aware but I had almost ran into her quite a few times over the past week. At the mall, the video store, and even the supermarket. It was like magnestism.

Sunday at the beach was a horrible display of self control, as soon as I realized it was her on the beach I should have continued right past her and to the more public area throught the trees. Curiosity got the best of me and it was only getting worse.

It was like everytime I saw her I had to speak to her, and the longer I was around her the harder it was to leave her. I didn't know if she felt anything but everytime I touched her I could feel the famiiar prickling sensation on my shoulder blades, threatening me. And oh! How I wanted to heal her when she was hurt because of me but that would have probably scared her half to death. I chuckled out loud at that.

It was Friday and I couldn't hide out anymore. I had to be around people. Happiness and positive energy is what keeps me going, I can't deal with depression and darkness. That young man from that god awful party nearly killed me with the negativity he was radiating but I couldn't let him hurt her. For a while now, the feelings haven't been hitting me as strong as they used to but I could still feel it wearing me down at times.

I decided to go into town for a walk. There would be a lot of people out laughing and having a good time, maybe I'd get invited somewhere. Not that I was interested in such activities, but I had to fit in. Eventually they would realize I was different and shy away from me, they always did. Then it was on to the next city, or town, or state. Maybe I'll go even further, I hadn't been out of America in some time.

When I got to the edge of town I pulled my shirt on and started walking with my hands in my pockets. Just observing my surroundings.

"Hi," I heard a small voice  beside me before I was tapped on the shoulder. I flinched automatically.

"Hello," I said slowly, raising an eyebrow at the tiny girl behind me. She had to be atleast seventeen but she was about the size of my forearm.

"Umm, I just saw you walking by yourself and was wondering if you wanted to maybe hang out with me and my friends?" she asked with her arms behind her back, looking hopeful.

"Sorry but I was sort of counting on being alone tonight," I said giving her a sympathetic look.

"Well okay then, sorry I bothered you," she said as disappointment washed across her face, and she turned to go back the way she came.

It was in my nature to make people happy and a long time ago I would have gone with that girl just to see her smile, but now it was different. I was different.

I ignored the constant stares and whispers and hoped that I wouldn't run into Rayne again and if I did I could atleast get away unnoticed. Being around her was just too much and it seemed like each time I got around her I couldn't think straight. I tried to blend in but it seemed next time I would need to move to a much bigger town or city. This place was too small and all the town's attention was on me.