No Secrets (BTS JHOPE FANFIC)

• Breaking Point •

I went on with my week normally.

Although everything is different now.

My best friend, isn't exactly my best friend anymore.

I'm way up my ass I can't get out.

I feel like everyone is in my business, and I don't really feel comfortable next to my boyfriend.

Lee Jooheon.

He showed me a side of him I never knew existed, I wish I didn't discover it.

Jooheon isn't the person he seems to be, deep down he's a lion.

A monster.

Cold.

If he's that, then what am I?

My affection toward him decreased, I kiss him here and there but only when he asks for it.

I also avoid being alone with him, I fear that he might try to hurt me or something.

The trust I had for him is long gone, what am I doing? Why aren't I crying out? Why am I so scared?

I never cared about anything before, yet, why do I care so much now?

I don't understand myself.

At least Jooheon hasn't questioned me or anything, I try my best to play it cool.

I act like nothing is wrong.

Like what happened on Saturday never happened before...

But it's stuck in the back of my head like gum. I ALWAYS relive the moment.

Each time I do I regain the fear I had when he gave me that look.

He just wasn't himself.

I try to think of rational explanations as to why Jooheon turned into another person that night.

Nothing comes out rational.

The only conclusions I come to are two words.

Aggressive, and violent.

Those words aren't words to describe Jooheon, the glove doesn't fit.

I myself can't accept it, yet I'm afraid, how does that make sense

It doesn't.

I'm so close to losing my mind.

I wish there was someone I can cry to, rant, scream.

I had someone.

He's gone though.

He's just another shadow behind me.

He could've been MY shadow...

What am I even thinking?

"Hey you~"

My heart sunk a little but I kept myself calm, "Hey." I greeted with a big fake smile.

Jooheon leaned against the lockers and smiled back, "You look hot today, new shirt?"

He only notices me when I wear something provocative.

How disgusting. Why didn't I realize what a huge pervert he is before even catching interest?

I'm so stupid.

"Uh-- yeah. I guess heh." I said awkwardly and used my books to hide my revealing stomach.

I chose the wrong day to wear a crop top...

"Kiss?" He whispered and leaned in.

I puckered my lips and pecked his lips quickly.