abducted

four

[kate]
After Grayson walked out of my room I knew that it was okay for me to let out the tears that I had been holding back.
I threw my head into my pillow and cried.
I cried, and cried, and cried.
I argue with Grayson all the time, but we never brought anything to this level.
I couldn't control myself. I had planned on keeping my feelings towards the twins job to myself and tell absolutely nobody, but my anger got the best of me.
I hate myself for letting it get to this.
I could have just let it all go, tell him that it was okay.
Even though it wasn't.
I could have let him just tell their fans about me right then and there, but I didn't.
I flipped out. I told him everything that I had ever thought about them.
I cried more than I think I have ever cried before.
I was so angry at Grayson. I felt so bad for flipping out on him though.
I don't know how to feel.
Someone knocked on my door.
I wiped the tears away from my eyes.
"It's Jaycee." Jaycee said.
"Go away." I said.
She opened the door and sat on the edge of my bed.
"He said that he wishes that I was never his sister ever." I cried into her shoulder.
"Kate." She said and rubbed my back.
"I hate myself." I said starting to cry again.
I shoved my face back into my pillow.
"Don't say that." Jaycee said.
"Now I feel bad because I told Grayson-." She cut me off.
"I heard it." She said.
"So Ethan heard too?" I asked.
"He did." She said.
I cried even harder.
Jaycee wrapped her arms around me.
"It's going to be okay." She said.
"No it's not." I said.
"I don't even know how to feel." I started.
"I'm mad at Grayson, but I feel bad for everything that I said." I cried.
"Do you want to be alone?" She asked me.
"Yes." I said.
I sat up.
"Are you sure?" She asked.
"No." I said and cried into her shoulder.
"I don't know what to do." I cried.
"Shh." Jaycee shushed me as if I was a baby.
"Can you get Finn, Jack, and Nate?" I asked her while hyperventilating.
"To talk in private?" She asked.
"Yes." I said.
"I'll go get them." She said.
[jaycee]
I let go of Kate and walked out of her room. I walked downstairs where the guys were.
"How is she?" Ethan asked.
I pointed to the large spot on my shoulder from Kate's tears.
"She's not doing too well." I said.
"She wants Finn, Jack, and Nate." I said.
"To talk in private with her." I added.
The three looked at each other and walked upstairs.
Ethan, Grayson, Jake, and I were left downstairs.
"She's mad at herself." I said to Grayson who was sitting with his head in his hands.
"She's mad that she yelled at you, but she's even more mad that you yelled back. Especially saying that you wished she was never your sister." I added.
"I'm so stupid." Grayson said.
Ethan didn't respond.
"Jake and I are going to leave so you guys can figure this out." I said.
[jack]
My brothers and I walked upstairs and approached our sisters room.
I knocked on the door and poked my head in.
I heard Kate crying into her pillow.
The three of us walked into her room and all sat on her bed.
"He said that he wishes I was never his sister." She said without lifting her head from the pillow.
"That's what he really thinks of me. He doesn't love me. What if he never did?" She started and cried harder.
"Kate, stop crying." Nate said.
Finn and I looked at Nate and gave him a
"Don't you see what she's going through?!" Look.
He mouthed the word sorry.
"He didn't mean it." Finn said.
She sat up.
Her eyes were red and puffy from crying.
"What if he's only saying that. He probably is." She said hyperventilating.
"No he-." I started, but she cut me off.
"Yes he is. After what I said? I don't blame him for hating me. I would hate me. I do hate me." She cried and put her hands over her face.
I hugged her, Nate and Finn joined.
"Don't say that." Finn said.
I looked around.
Her pillows were stained with her tears. Her face was stained with her tears. I don't think she ever cried so much.
"Ethan probably hates me too." She said.
"He doesn't." Nate said.
She pushed us off.
"Did you hear what I said!?" She asked.
"Anything that I had implied to Grayson basically applied to him. I didn't ever want to say any of that. I wanted to keep those feelings to myself." She said wiping tears from her eyes.
"I do you want us to get Ethan?" I asked.
"If he's mad at me, no." She said.
We got up and left the room.
"She's a mess." Nate whispered.
"She's not recovering from this for a while." Finn added.
We walked downstairs.
"Way to go Grayson, you broke Kate." Nate said.
I covered Nate's mouth and kicked him in the shin.
Grayson looked up at Nate.
"SHUT UP NATE." Grayson yelled.
"I know what I did." He said.
"She wants to see you Ethan, as long as you're not mad at her." Finn said.
"Why would I be mad at her?" Ethan asked.
He shrugged his shoulders.
"She doesn't want to talk to me at all?" Grayson asked.
"Why would she? You said that you wished she was never your sister. That coming from her older brother that she thought loved her, of course she's not going to want to talk to you. I wouldn't be surprised if she didn't talk to you for the rest of her life." I spat.
"It's official, I'm the worst big brother in the world." Grayson said looking down.
"Maybe." Finn said.