The Endless Forever

Part 10

I reached for the knife in my pocket but I couldnt grasp it. I felt the sharp tip dig itself into my palm but I was too terrified to care.

It was slipping out of my fingers, and I tried my best to keep hold of it but it dropped onto the stones as I was dragged backwards by this mystery person.

Then my body finally realized that if I didnt fight I might get hurt. So I elbowed backwards, but I missed. This person was skilled.

A hand was covering my mouth and I was spun around and pressed against the fence, another hand on my waist.

"Dont scream." A voice said, almost sheepishly. "Please?"

I didnt care about hygiene right now, so I did what I always did when Daniel got me into this situation; I licked the hand.

"Ew." The hand was lifted off my mouth briefly, but long enough for me to let out what I hoped was a loud scream, but came out like an injured puppy whining.

"Do you have any idea how long I've been waiting for you?"

"I dont know who the hell you are." I whispered.

"For gods sake Alexs, it's me."

"Jordan?" I held him at arms length before sucking in a short breath and throwing myself at him, my arms wound tight around his neck. He didnt hug back. I pulled away.

"What's wrong? Where were you?" I questioned. "You were nearly two hours. Ten minutes? Really?" I was starting to get angry. "I looked all over for you! You fucking left me!" All tiredness had left my body now and was replaced by fury.

"You dont understand-" He began, but I hit him in the chest with my fist.

"You said ten minutes! I walked to the beach! I got lost, and then you scared the shit outta me!"

He took a step towards me but I put my hands in front of me to stop him coming any closer.

"Alexs, im sorry, please just let me explain. I went out for a walk."

"Yeah, a bloody long one. Where did you go?"

"I went to dad's grave."

My heart sank into my stomach and I wish I could pick up my knife right now and stab myself in the face. I buried my face in my hands.

"I-I need to go.." I turned around and started running.

"No." Jordan snaked his arms round my hips, turning me back around to face him. He stared at his feet for a few seconds before connecting his eyes with mine. "I dont want you to go."

My breathing was forced and my eyes prickled with guilty tears. I didnt even notice until Jordan put his hands either side of my face, and wiped away my tears with his thumb.

He leant in slowly, and for a split second I thought he was going to kiss me, but instead he hid his face in my shoulder and pulled me closer. I squeezed my eyes shut and wrapped my fingers in his hair.

"Im sorry." I mumbled. "I didnt know, im such a bitch."

Jordan's shoulders were shaking and he was taking gasping breaths.

"This is why I need to leave, Jord. Im upsetting you." I sighed and backed away. "Im sorry."

"Alexs please, I need you." He begged, wiping his eyes. "Dont."

He reached out a hand and I took it.

"Coming inside?"

I nodded sadly and stepped in, quietly taking off my shoes and hoodie. Jordan smiled weakly at me before running up the stairs.

I felt like such an ass. He'd gone to visit his dead father and I'd screamed at him for leaving me. Wow. I think i just hit a new low.