Something I Can't Have (Seme Male Reader x Kakashi) {Naruto Shippuden}

chapter 23

the next day....

shika pov

kiba has been acting weird lately. ever since yesterday when he came back from opening the door, he has been even more distant. doesn't listen to 80% of what i say. like he just tunes me out. doesn't really like cuddling any more. just sleeps in my bed. we haven't had sex since that first time and....well yeah. im sorta horny. we sat in class in our regular seats. kiba two seats to my left instead of right next to me. its weird. i noticed he would steal glances at john every now and then. shit. you dont think....i shook my head. no. kiba isn't like that. he wouldn't cheat on me. he wouldn't cheat period. everyone always cheated on him which still doesn't make sense. who would cheat on a guy as lovable as kiba? its ridiculous. tsunade had gave us a group assignment. "hey ki-" he had already disappeared from his desk. i looked around the room to see he had went right over to john and they started chatting about something. john didn't really pay attention to him but it didn't seem to bother kiba. shit. i think he still likes him. what the hell! like im not right here. he is sitting over there fawning over him like im not right here. i turned around and faced the front. i felt a patting on my shoulder. i turned to see hidan as sat in the desk next to me. "aint that ya boyfriend over there?" he pointed to kiba and john. i sighed. "yeah...or at least i thought he was my boyfriend. its clear that he still wants to be with john," i admitted. he scratched his head nervously. "yeah. i feel him on that one but john has his mind on something else right now," he said. i raised a brow. "dont know who the guy is but john is head over heels for him. i tried to call and text him all day yesterday but he never gave me the time of day," he shrugged. i chuckled. "what? someone john is actually interested in? i must see this man," i said. he chuckled. "you and me both," he said.

me and kiba went to lunch after our health class. we enjoyed some subs in the school's café. he is still really distant. hasn't said a word to me since....well last night actually. stopped talking to me after he had came back from opening the door. its...its getting to me. "kiba..." i said. he didn't even look up at me. no noise or anything. shit. i wrapped up the rest of my sub and stood up. didn't even look at me as i walked away. yeah, im bummed that i couldn't get john too but i was in this. i wanted to date. i was ready to go the distance with him but apparently he dont feel the same way. apparently he was only with me cause it made john happy. that if he did this with me, john would take him back. they started flowing down my face as i walked out the café. i risked a look back at him. not even looking. didn't even care that im walking out. that's fucked up.

i went home. i locked my door. i dont want him in here no more. i was ready to do this, thinking that kiba wanted this too but that's a lie. i just laid down in my bed, fucking crying till i fell asleep.

meanwhile...

reader pov

yeah. i was thinking about him. thinking about last night. thinking about Friday night. been thinking about it all day. shit. i was sitting in kakashi's class completely zoned out. i snapped my attention back to his lecture. "...search paper is due by the end of next week so make sure you guys get started on it soon," he said. SHIT! i completely forgot about the paper. its due next week but i like to get it out the way quickly. especially since im gonna be distracted for a long while. hmm...i wonder if i could get some help from shika. i texted him.

me: do you happen to have knowledge of sophomore English lit?

he didn't text back till about 10 minutes later.

shika: yeah. u need some help with a paper?

me: yeah. can i swing by after class today?