Something I Can't Have (Seme Male Reader x Kakashi) {Naruto Shippuden}

chapter 32

the next morning...

reader pov

i was woken up Saturday morning by the smell of....smoke? my eyes opened and looked around. i was still on my back as i was last night when i fell asleep. i turned my head. the muscular back of my boyfriend. he had sat up on the edge of the bed fidgeting with something in front of him. a puff of smoke would erupt every now and then. "...juugo?" i whispered, wiping my eyes of the sleep. a grunt i couldn't understand. i sat up slowly, stretching to rid myself of the aches from last night. i leaned over to see what he was doing. yeah, he was smoking. "since when did you smoke?" i asked, wondering why i had never tasted it on his breath. he took a long drag, exhaling it before he spoke. "since i took a dick last night.....and loved it," he whispered before taking another drag. his voice cracked a bit, showing that he had not yet became accustomed to it. its not to late. i quickly took it out his mouth and put it out. he looked at me as i took the lighter out his hand and set it on the bed stand. his eyes were already bloodshot. he didn't question what i did. if im lucky, i stopped him before it became a habit. "its....its fine babe. helps me relax," he whispered, leaning in for a kiss. i didn't let him. "im not tasting that on your breath. brush your teeth," i said before turning over in the bed. he grunted but got up and headed out the room.

while he was in the restroom, i took the liberty of going through his drawers. i had found three packs of cigarettes. shit. looks like this might have already been a problem for him. he must've just brushed his teeth before i saw him. if im lucky, this hasn't been a long time habit so it wont be hard to break. get him some nicotine packs and maybe a vaporizer and we can nip this in the bud. i tossed out the packs of cigarettes before returning to the bed.

he returned a few minutes later and climbed in the bed. he leaned in for a kiss. i let him connect. the taste of toothpaste. good. he got under the cover and threw a leg over my hips, resting on me as we kissed. i felt a warmth course through my body as he kissed me so passionately. butterflies in my stomach. i felt at peace. he pulled away and started kissing on me neck, resting one arm under the pillow i laid on and his other pressed against my chest to keep himself hovering over me. "we are gonna get you out of this, ok? its gonna be hard but we'll get the nicotine packs and a vaporizer with all types of flavors of liquid. we'll get through this just fine," i smiled. he groaned against my skin, sending shivers through my body. he leaned up, putting his forehead against mine. "you really gonna help me out of this?" he whispered. "of course. i dont like the taste of cigarettes and its bad for ya. i wanna nip it in the bud," i said. he chuckled. "you actually care dont you?" he whispered. "i want you healthy so we can live a long life together. if you need some stress relief, what are boyfriends for? we dont have to have sex for me to relieve some stress," i smirked. he kissed me again, ferociously, feeling every corner of my mouth. my hands drifted to rest on the small of his back. he straddled me, resting on his forearms on either side of my head. i felt wet drips on my face as he tried to swallow my tongue. he pulled away and buried his face in my neck, wrapping his arms around my shoulders and squeezing me tight. he rubbed his face in my neck constantly as the tears soaked into my neck. "are you ok? its actually not that big a deal. i know a great vapor spot. probably'll take a couple of months but you will be fine," i rubbed his back tenderly. he just cried into my shoulder for a long while. "babe....im filthy. lets take a shower then head downtown. we can totally make it a date...day? or whatever," i said. he nodded. "i...i have a meeting in two hours. after...after that we can go," he whispered.

later on that morning....

suigetsu pov

i gotta say, juugo is growing to be one of my best clients. its unbelievable. this will be the third day in a row he has called me to come out. only thing that's different is that he wanted me to come to his office at some venture capitalist company downtown instead of his penthouse. i sat across from him in his desk. he was just sobbing his eyes out leaning forward in his chair on his arm. "whoa man. just calm down. i got plenty with me," i patted my bag next to me. i just recently got promoted to the city main supplier so i can have up to 60 pounds on me. i only carry 45 but i can carry more if i need it. he just shook his head. he took out 6 bags of the good white stuff and put them on his desk between us. i raised a brow. "just...take 'em. i dont want any more. just take 'em and i dont wanna see ya ever again," he whimpered. i precariously reached for them, looking to see if he is gonna stop me. "you do know that you only get half the money back, right?" he just nodded. i put the 6 bags in my little children's back pack. i dug out the money pouch and handed him exactly half of the money back. he took it an put it in his wallet. "it was....nice doing business with you?" i didn't really know what was going on. he had been a client for the better part of the last 4 years. what on earth could make him wanna give it up now? i just grabbed my bag and headed out.