I'm Forever Yours

3. Meeting her

*********** 3 years later ************
Tif's POV

I sat on my desk. I had to pass yet another day. Today our desk partners would be fixed by our class teacher, Ms. Kim.

I don't know who would be my desk partner and I don't care. For my past years, I've been living alone. I'm glad that I got sent to a convent school. At least I won't be bothered by anyone.

I hate everyone. Yeah, because it is just so easy. No one gets hurt at least.

I am better heartless than heartbroken.

"Tifany, you'll be sitting with Ailina." Ms. Kim said.

Wow. I had to sit with a girl famous for dating by lying to her parents. The whole school knew about Ailina. She was famous. Too famous. She had been caught lying to her parents and going for dating and was suspended for a whole month. I'll have to sit with her from 8:30 in the morning to 4:00 in the evening. I don't know how my first terminals would go with that girl. It's gonna be the worst term ever.

Ail's POV

I had to sit with that nerd. Eww. I had stopped all those stuff dosen't mean I would be a goody goody girl again. I couldn't sit with that nerd. No never. She dosen't even talk much. I don't know what to do. I want to kill this Kim. This is going to be the worst term ever.

Maths ended. Then English and then physics. That Tifany literally took all the notes, every detail that Mr. Shin was teaching. I asked," Why are you taking all these notes? The definitions are all in the book."

She said," This is Shin. He dosen't give marks unless everything is written exactly what he says. He is so learned that he finds faults with the book's definition."

I asked," Really?" She nodded. " Give your notes of earlier days then." I said and she smiled. She looked really pretty.

While I copied the notes I found it surprising that just a moment ago I was irritated that she was acting like a typical nerd and copying all the notes and now here I am copying her notes. I wasn't being a nerd, was I? No, I wasn't. I was weak in science and I could pass in physics and biology but I couldn't pass in chemistry. And I didn't want to be held back a year. So I had to do it.

$$$$$$$ After 3 months. $$$$$$$$$

Ail's POV

I don't know how three months passed and I had actually enjoyed sitting with Tif. We had become good friends. She was actually great and not a nerd. She was just a bad girl that hadn't yet been caught. She didn't study to much but still got marks. That's why I thought her to be a nerd when she was a cool girl.

"Let's go to the ground. I left my water bottle there." I told Ani. She nodded.

As we came back from the ground, I was chatting with her when she said,"Don't cry for him. You look better while smiling. The smile of your is very precious. Don't let it get spoiled by anyone."

I bit my lips. How on earth did she know that I had been crying in Socialogy period? I told her that I was going to sleep." I wasn't crying." I denied.

She handed me a few chocolates and said, "Eat these chocolates. You shouldn't be depressed."

I was about to deny but Tif herself changed the topic. I had been crying all these time and not a single soul had noticed. How did she notice? How did she know that I was depressed? I had to know. She was the first one to notice that fact and she was the first one to understand me without me speaking. I had always wanted this from Andy. "You shouldn't be remembering him. It will make things harder." My sub consciousness reminded me and she was right. I had to forget him.

I was still surprised how Tif came to know about my depression. I had to ask her.

She understood me without me making her understand.

When we were in the class, I asked her," Tif, how did you know I was crying? And how did you know I am depressed? "

Tif said," You're finally admitting it. Well, at least you said the truth."

I again said," Tif. Don't roll things like a roller coaster. Tell me how. I fucking want to know."

Tif said, " I told you not to swear so often. You should swear rarely so that people notice that you are angry or are stressing on something. Or else it will be normal and no one will care. About you crying, I really doubted when you went to sleep in every Social period. And when I patted you, you felt so much comfortable and relaxed. When you woke up you always had wetness in your eyes. So I figured out that you were crying. About depression every time you were smiling, you had a strange sort of sadness in your eyes. You always had dark circles under your eyes so I figured that you didn't sleep very much. You always looked lively and cracked jokes and that meant you were really really sad inside. And that means you were depressed."

"You observed me so deeply? How come I didn't notice?" I asked.

Tif pulled me into a hug and whispered in my ears," Ail, everyone has that point in life when we are really depressed. We are sad and we cry. We tend to become weak. We are ripped and are torn apart. All of us have a past that we want to forget but it seems impossible so we just cry over the bitter past. Our past comes like scars that cannot be removed no matter what. In fact, the scar never gets removed. We just have to live with that scar. But that scar dosen't make us less beautiful. We can still smile a real smile and learn to live even with that scar. It just takes time and effort of some people. One day you will surely learn to live again, happily. I know it is difficult. I can't promise that everything is going to be easy. But you have to keep on going. You have to be strong because it is the only choice you have. You are brave. Just a bit of effort. Don't ignore your scar. Cherish it because at some time it was beautiful. It's gonna be hell lot of difficult but one day you will be able to proudly look at them and smile brightly."

The hug and those words felt so comforting. I had not told her a single thing about my past and yet she understood so much. I felt like I had a friend who cared, cared for me. And my happiness mattered to someone apart from myself. Somewhere in my heart I felt like I was destined to meet her and be her friend. "Thanks" I muttered "for being my friend. Don't ever let me fall."

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Author's note
Thank you for reading. I made the character as Ani cause I've always wanted a friend like Tif. It's sad that I haven't got one yet. Please comment and vote. XOXOXO