I'm Forever Yours

6. What? Forgive him?

Tif's POV

After Ail went to the washroom, suddenly he came and sat at Ail's place.

He sat in front of me. I was surprised, in fact more than surprised after this sudden visit. I had missed him and I longed for him but he didn't deserve it. He didn't deserve my hugs, he didn't deserve my smile, he didn't deserve anything. All he deserved was hatred.

"Long time no see. Glad to see you Tif. Please let me explain." He said. There was no remorse in his voice. It feels so bad that it's so easy for him. Yeah, when you try so hard to forget him and one day he suddenly appears like a swift of wind and blows into your face like nothing ever happened.

"Yeah. Long time no see. I can't say I'm glad to see you Mr. Andy Francs."I said scrolling my phone so that I didn't have to see his face.

Before I could say anything, Ail came back. She was not too surprised to see Andy but anyone could see sadness in her face. She was filled with sorrow and why wouldn't she? Afterall now that she'd started to live again her past came and stood in front of her face. And she didn't cry. She was a strong girl. Even with that much happenings, she mustered enough courage to ask, "Do you know each other?"

I said, "I only know the person I thought he was, not him. I don't know why he is here right now. I don't even care. Anyways please sit down. You should be hearing what he has to say to me cause you've got the right to know. Not as his ex, but as my friend; as my friend who's always there for me unlike some fake jerks."

She got seated. Then, I looked at his eyes, his emerald eyes asked, "What do you have to say Francs? Say fast. I don't have time to waste on you. "

"Can" he uttered "you forgive me? Please. I know what I did was wrong but I need time to explain. Please just once Tif. Just once. I'm sorry and I mean it."

"Say whatever you have to say. But still I doubt if my answer will ever change. And don't dare call me Tif. That's only for people whom I'm comfortable with." I said. It was difficult. Really very difficult. The broken pieces that had began to colide were breaking once more.

Ail was there listening patiently. I wish I'd told her about this earlier but how could I? How could I say that the boyfriend whom she loved so much broke up with her just for my sake and then left me too? How could I let her break yet again?

"I know I shouldn't have left you there. I broke a promise but I couldn't face you. I had a girlfriend whose responsibility I had taken. I was ready to break up with her for you. I even broke up with her and I was going to confess but I had to leave. We were shifting abroad and everything happened so suddenly. Please forgive me. It wasn't my choice to leave you."

"Still the same old jerk. That's why I'm glad you left me. You know what?Relationship is a big responsibility to be taken. Whenever you are in a relationship, you have to take responsibility of both you and your partner. Relationship is not a joke. True you never loved her but breaking a relationship has it's own way. You just went to your girlfriend and told her that you no longer wanted her and your words were a lie. You just broke her heart. You didn't even say sorry. That's when I doubted my choice. I asked myself if I could really trust you.

And as time went on I thought that I could trust you again but I was wrong. One day you just left. You forgot all the promises you'd made with me. I understand you shifed but not a single phone call? It's been a year. Twelve months and no message, no call, no nothing. You broke my trust. There was a time when I'd even take a bullet for you. But still I was unknown that you were behind the trigger. Do you even know how much I was going through?"

I managed to smile. Tears formed in my eyes but I couldn't let him see them. I couldn't let them fall. I wasn't gonna show Andy my broken side . I had to be strong. It was my only choice. I had lived alone those twelve months without seeing his face and I could live on.

I looked towards Ail. Her eyes were full of tears. I shouldn't have asked her to stay. But she had the right to know. She needed to know why Mandy left her. She needed to know the truth. It didn't take a genius to know that she still loved Andy. Even after her a year of break up and knowing that Andy left her for good, she couldn't let him go completely. She was sad and heartbroken. And now I was there in front of her, fighting with her ex and talking about why he left her. I am cruel. Too cruel.

Andy still didn't stop. He just neglected Ail completely. Not even a "hi" escaped from his lips. He acted as she was invisible. It was giving Ail such a pain in her heart. I don't know how I even loved such a person. Past was in the past. I hope now Ail won't be broken anymore, especially not for a jerk like him.

Andy said,"Please Ani. Just one last time. Forgive me. Don't ignore me. I will change. I will try being a better individual. Please. Just once."

My heart was melting until I remembered all the lies he had told me. I wanted him but I could not see him.

Cause love is not enough to entrust your heart to somebody else, especially if the person is the reason that it's broken.

I said,"Trust. Its one of the most sensative word. Mostly because it is the most insincere and fragile word out there. And you broke it. You even have a slight idea what my condition was after you left me? I stopped trusting myself. I stopped thinking that I could ever be happy again. I stopped going out. I stopped making friends and talking to people so that I won't fall in love and become heart broken ever again. I even deactivated my Facebook so that I wouldn't have to face anyone. I locked myself in my room and cried all day. You left me alone, all by myself after breaking my heart. I was just out there acting strong when I was really breaking inside. Everyday I had to put on that fake smile and act like nothing happened. You made me fake. I lived in a fake world after you left. My happiness became an illusion. I texted you, called you so much but you ignored them all. And now you are here after all those months asking me to forgive you for breaking my heart. But my heart is already broken. Far too broken to glue them together."
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Author's note

Finally. This was a long chapter. Thank you for your support. Please comment and vote. XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXO