I'm Forever Yours

27. Fate

Andy's POV
She just smiled.

"Now promise me. Promise me that you won't talk about the death so easy." I said.

But it was too late. Bang. The car crashed with a tree ahead. The car rolled over.

"Tiffany." I screamed. The front window had crashed. Pieces of glasses were flying everywhere. It was all black even in the daylight. The door was locked. I was hurt on my left arm and head.

The car stopped rolling over.All black. Everything was all scattered. When I saw Tif, she had blood all over. I froze. I couldn't move. It was like my whole body froze. I had pain all over in my body.

"Tif. I love you." I said with a lot of difficulty.

She was bleeding. She looked very pale. Still she managed to say "I love you too."

And that is the last thing I remember. I closed my eyes. It was maybe easier this way. Maybe this was our ending. Blood was oozing all over. It is so funny like how just a moment everything was so fit and fine. We were both talking and together. It seemed that this fairy tale would last forever and we would have a happy ending. But I was wrong. Just a split second and everything dissapeared like a puff a smoke. Everything shattered into pieces.
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Andy's POV
I suddenly wake up. I see around. I am in a room. This is not my room and this bed, it is not mine. Where am I? I see around once more and suddenly I realize that I am in a hospital.

But how?

Suddenly all the memories flashed down. Of that day. The accident. Tif. Now everything was making sense.

So I managed to survive. Wow. But where was Tif?

Suddenly a doctor came to me.He was checking my I don't know what when I asked "Doctor, where is Tiffany? The girl who was with me?"

"I don't know what you are talking about. You have been in the hospital for a few days. It's a surprise you woke up. Your relatives can visit you tomorrow so ask them about it." The doctor said.

"Please doctor. Once. Only for five minutes. Please send someone in. Please doctor. I won't ask for anything more. I just want to see her and make sure that she is okay." I requested.

The doctor finally gave in. "There is a gentleman waiting outside. You can talk to him but not more than five minutes."

"Thank you doctor." I said.

And Kun came in. "How are you? Are you fine? How could you leave me alone? It has been five days. Five bloody freaking days. You are my brother. How could you leave me like that?"

I said "Now stop it. By the way, how is Tif? She is fine isn't she? Tell her that I want to see her."

Kun was silent. It was making me afraid.

"Tell me where she is." I said.

Still silence.

"SPEAK KUNSANG, SPEAK." I roared this time.

"Andy, she is.. she is.." he said.

"She is what?" I shouted. "Nothing has happened to her right. Tell me. TELL ME."

"She is gone. Gone forever. She is dead." He said tears floating down on his cheeks.

My world shattered. No. It cannot happen.

I said with some hope "You are joking aren't you. Tif will come back right? Tell me it's a joke."

Kun was crying.

I could not believe it. Somewhere deep in my heart I believed she would come back. "I refuse to believe that she is gone. As long as I don't see her dead body, I WILL NOT BELIEVE THAT SHE IS DEAD. TAKE ME TO HER."

Kun said still crying, "No. I cannot do that. You will break. You can't see her body."

"What body?" I said "SHE IS ALIVE. TAKE ME TO HER."

"No." Kun said.

I said,"FOR HELL'S SAKE TAKE ME TO HER. SHE IS ALIVE. I WANT TO SEE HER. IF YOU SAY SHE IS DEAD THAN SHOW HER DEAD BODY. SHE IS ALIVE. JUST TAKE ME TO HER."

I was furious. I had to see her. Kun was lying. She couldn't be.. No she is alive. I just need to be positive.

"Okay." Kun said giving up.

I got up and despite the doctor's refusal, I went to see her.

Kun took me to another room. There was a bed with a body covered in white. No. She is alive. I reminded myself.

Kun stayed outside, crying. I slowly went forward.

"Please be alive. Please wake up. Wake up and say it is a joke. Please." I whispered as I walked.

With my heart beating loudly and goosebumps all over, I managed to lift the covers.

Tif was sleeping.

I shook her up. She didn't stir. "Wake up. Just wake up. Please don't joke. Please. Wake up." I said choking myself.

Crying I asked Kun "Why isn't she opening her eyes."

He came and held me, still crying said "She won't wake up. Accept it."

My world shattered, completely. The air that allowed to breathe me just a minute ago was suffocating me. The face that cheered me every time was killing me from inside. Everything was useless. I felt tears oozing from my eyes and mucus coming from my nose. Nothing is happiness. She was in front of me but lifeless. So close but yet so far. How could this happen? My world had become blank. Nothing, nothing in the world could comfort me.

And I cried. "No. How could she how could she? I wanted us to be together. How am I supposed to breathe now? How can I live now? Why? Why did it happen to me. The moment I thought that everything was just perfect and nothing could go wrong. Why? Just why? She is my world. I can't live without my world. What will happen to me? She can't leave me like this. She is my only star in the dark. I can't live without my star. Nothing is gonna be okay. Why?"

And I cried. I cried the whole night. I cried like a fool. I cried like a mad man and yet my tears didn't bring her back. It couldn't bring her back. I denied both food and water. I couldn't live without her. Maybe it was happening because everything was perfect, just too perfect to be real. I stayed there stroking her face. Why did it happen. Everything happens good in movies.

'Life isn't a movie.' She had said that.

Now I was left with just memories of her. She had gone far away, leaving me alone.

Then I remembered she said.
'I am like a star. You may not always see me but I am always there. Whenever you miss me, just look at the stars.'

So I knew where to search for her. I opened the window and wiped my tears. She wouldn't want to see me cry. And I watched the night sky. It was full of stars and Tif was among them. One of the stars, shining brilliantly in the sky.

Tif had always loved the darkness. And now she was there, shining in the darkness. Brightly, for me.

And there I realized I couldn't be weak. Tif would hate seing that. She always was strong herself and wanted me to be strong as well. She wasn't gone. She didn't leave me. She was always there with me. Even though not physically in the world, but along with me, in my memories and as a star, always watching me. I had to live for her, smile for her.

I wiped my tears. Kun was there at the door.

"Prepare for the funeral." I said and Kun looked at me surprised.
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Author's note
I know I was too cruel but that's what we call real life, my friend. It is inevitable to get hurt in this world. It's just that no matter what, life moves on. We need to live with the scars.

Today is my turn for hugs. I need hugs in loads. Hugs to you too.