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taehyung

my loud sobs filled the room as my head throbbed in pain, due to the excessive amount of thinking i had been doing for the past few days.

i didn't go to school.

i knew i was missing a lot but i can't see her. nor anyone.

somehow being alone can get you to avoid getting hurt,

even if being alone is painful in its own way as the feeling of longing creeps up to your senses.

so tonight, i just broke down.

it's hard keeping everything in. somehow it all gets too heavy, and at one point, you just let it all out together with tears streaming down your face.

i tried. i tried so hard to get away from these feelings, these emotions for her.

i tried to move on.

i tried to let go.

i tried to accept everything.

but i can't.

i failed. i failed in everything.

but my biggest mistakes?

i let her in;

i loved her;

then i fell in love with her.

she let me in;

however she never loved me;

and she never fell in love with me.

love stayed unrequited,

my heart was broken,

and my life was messed up.