Book 1: Unchanged Hearts

XLVI

Eve's P.O.V

I was walking on the sand feeling the fresh air from the beach

I saw a man standing inch a way from me

Malabo siya pero unti unti kong nakikilala

"Matthew"

I wisphered

Until he turned around and smiled at me

Nanlaki ang mata ko kaya mabilis akong tumakbo papalapit sakanya at niyakap siya

"I missed you!"

"I missed you more I'm sorry I didn't have the chance to tell you how much I love you"

"I know it Matthew kahit hindi mo sabihin alam kong mahal na mahal mo ako"

I hugged him tight

Oh how I missed this man

We walk holding hands together while laughing at each other

Until he stopped and cupped my face

"I love you wife I miss you so Much"

"I love you more and I miss you "

"but you have to let me go"

Suddenly my smile disappeared

"w-what are you talking about?"

"I need to go to a beautiful place I need to say good bye forever "

"Matthew are you gonna leave me again?"

He hugged me

"I will leave you physically but never in your heart I guess this is good bye my love"

My tears started to fall when he removed his hand on mine and walk far away from me until I can't no longer see him

I run and searched the place

Baka nandito siya at tinataguan ako

But there was no sign of him anymore

I guess he's gone forever

Hanggang sa magising ako

It was a dream..

A farewell message from him

Napayakap ako sa unan niya at tuluyan nanamang tumulo ang luha ko

I still can't accept the fact that he's no longer with us forever

Because when your around with someone for so long, they will become a part of you

But when they leave you forever , you don't know who you are without them

Bumangon ako kahit wala ako sa wisyong tumayo dahil walang mag aasikaso sa anak ko kundi ako nalang mag isa..

Naligo ako at pinagluto siya

"Mommy hindi mo na kailangan mag ganyan mag pahinga ka muna at ako muna ang mag aasikaso sa sarili ko you need time to rest Mommy "

Niyakap ko siya

"anak of course I need time but how can I move forward if I didn't make my self busy?"

"okay Mommy papasok kana ba?"

"yup that's what I need "

Hinatid ko si Sammy sa school atsaka ako pumasok sa kompanya

It was really sad.. Ang dating masayang kompanya naging malungkot na ng tuluyan

Pumasok na ako sa opisina ko at nagsimula ng magtrabaho

But I guess keeping my self busy wouldn't change anything I am still grieving for my husband I am still not okay at all and I will never be

Pumasok si Brittany sa loob

"bakit pumasok ka kaagad?"

"pareho kayo ni Sammy hindi ba ako pwedeng pumasok?"

"pwede naman pero ang weird lang your still on the mourning stage how come your okay now?"

"Brit pano ko magiging okay? Kung sa bawat pagpikit ko sa, pag tulog ko si Matthew ang nakikita ko na kasama ko parin siya, tapos kapag gigising ako marerealize ko na wala na nga pala ang asawa ko "

"Eve kaya nga you need to rest "

"No I'm not gonna stay on that house I don't want to remember any memories in that house I don't want to be alone Brit hayaan niyo naman ako na kalimutan siya "

"okay but make sure na makakatulong yan okay?"

Tumango ako

Days weeks have passed pumapasok parin ako para mawala na yung sakit pero hindi parin mawala wala dumadalaw ako parati sa puntod niya para kausapin siya

Tuwing gabi nalang naalala ko siya tapos gigising ako na hindi ko na pala siya makikita iiyak nalang ako ulit yayakapin ulit yung unan niya yung picture niya yung mga damit niya

Halos mabaliw na ako sa sobrang pangungulila sakanya

Hindi ko parin mapigilan yung sakit na nararamdaman ko