Book 1: Unchanged Hearts

XXXVIII

Nang magising ako ang una kong pinuntahan ay si Matthew

Kaso wala nanaman siya maaga nanamang umalis

Naligo na ako at nagluto ng agahan

I know that Matthew is not on his usual self

May problema ba siya na hindi niya masabi sakin,o may iba na ba?

"Mommy? Oh what's wrong?"

Sammy hugged me from behind

"hmm? Nothing why did you asked?"

"magkaaway ba kayo ni Daddy?"

"hindi anak we're okay don't worry about us okay?"

Umupo na siya sa upuan para kumain

Mag isa ako buong maghapon ganoon ang pakikitungo ni Matthew sakin uuwi siya ng gabi minsan lasing pa

Hindi ako nag rereklamo iniintindi ko siya ayoko mag isip ng kung anu ano dahil baka mali naman ang iniisip ko

All I want was to talk to him and tell me what bothers him I could help him I know I can

Rumors where spreading really fast kung anu anong controversies ang kumakalat tungkol sakanila ni Jewel I didn't bother to ask him dahil alam kong magagalit siya

Pero totoo pala

kapag napuno kana hindi mo na mapipigilan

It was evening and again Matthew came home exactly 12 midnight

He was surprised when he saw me standing in front of the window but he didn't care he just removed all his clothes and came near me

"still awake?"

He caressed my face I knew he was drunk

He began to kiss me hungrily

He was about to remove my robe

"Matthew stop "

But he didn't care it feels like he didn't heard me

He forcely removed my robe at push me in the bed

He was on top of me now and began to kiss me I tried to resist but he deepened the kiss

Hindi ko alam kung bakit bigla nalang may tumutulo na luha sa mga mata ko

Napatigil siya sa ginagawa niya at umupo

Umupo ako at inayos ang damit ko na halos masira na

" don't you remember Matthew? Hindi mo ako pinapansin ng ilang araw and then now what? You're gonna treat me like a bed warmer to you? Matthew I'm your wife unless you forgot "

Tumayo siya at hinagis ang kung anong makuha niya

"bulsh*t I'm tired of everything Eve ayoko makipag talo"

"hindi ako nakikipag talo Matthew tinanong kita kung may problema ka pero wala kang sinasabi nagagalit ka pa sakin ,If your tired from everything just tell me I'm your wife I will help you surpass all your problems but if this is about you and Jew-"

"keep her out of this problem!"

"bakit mo siya pinagtatanggol ngayon? Kasi ano buking kana?"

"stop it Eve your over-reacting!"

"I'm not over reacting! Kung sasabihin mo sakin kung ano ang problema mo hindi ako magiisip ng kung anu ano!"

"it's nothing that concerns you"
Nagsimulang tumulo ang luha ko

"nothing that concerns me? Matthew I am your wife did you forgot?"

"It's not the right time Eve"

Tumayo siya at lumabas ng kuwarto naiwan akong tulala at umiiyak

What happened to him may iba na ba? Hindi na ba niya ako mahal? Sa six years naming mag asawa nag sawa na ba siya sakin?

Ano bang ginawa ko? Para maging ganito siya saakin

Humiga ako sa kama habang umiiyak

Gumising ako ng maaga at pinag luto si Sammy ng makakain

Dahil papasok na ulit ako alam kong hindi magugustuha ni Matthew na pumasok ulit ako dahil tapos na ang sick leave ko

Naligo na ako at nag ayos

"papasok kana Mommy?"

"of course anak kaya tara na at ihahatid pa kita sa school mo"