Psychotic Protection (Hisoka X OC)

My Closure

I was leaning up in a tree looking at the clouds blow by. The sun was out but it wasn't too hot thanks to the strong breeze. Hisoka was below sitting on the grass doing the same thing as I was, not that I cared. Damn man was so easy to spot in the fucking grass. Looks like a fucking red tulip. Meg was all fixed up and still sleeping leaning against the tree while my mother still stood emotionless. It was kind of creepy so I possitioned her to where I couldn't see her. If that was disrespectful or not is still up in the air but either way, I feel a little bit better.

I would feel a lot better if Mar's soul had appeared. I've been waiting for four days now and still no Mar. I just hope it didn't take a year for souls to appear. I don't know if I'll have it in me to leave for a year instead of sitting and waiting. Even though that would be impossible since the people around here didn't take kindly to women with horns. The only reason I managed to slip by for a split second is the direction and shape of mine. The people are used to seeing Megs, my mothers or other souls she happens to have on her.

I frowned feeling as though someone was watching me. Unfortunately I knew who it was. I have no clue why the bastard is looking at me. If he so much as asks to leave or something I'll knock his teeth down his throat, or at least have a wet dream about doing it. I took a deep breath and continued to look up at the passing clouds.

"Hmm." I heard from below me. I looked down and saw Meg starting to move about in her sleep. I jumped down from my branch and landed beside her crouching down. Her eyes moved behind her eyelids before they finally opened. "It's you? Where am I what....." She began then stopped when she tried to use her left arm to help her get up, only to find that it was missing.

"Your about thirty miles outside the swamp, even farther away from that old town." I explained to her as she looked numbly at her stump arm.

"What happened since I passed out?" She asked.

"I did what I could to stop the bleeding. Hisoka took your arm as proff that you had died. Meanwhile I took you away from your house before the officials tore it apart. Once Hisoka had the money he found me. From there I had him track down a doctor. We paid him to fix you up. It's been almost a week since all this happened." I explained taking my canteen from its strap pouch and handed it to her. She took the flask and drank greedily from the container.

"So, what now?" She asked whipping her mouth from the excess water.

"Well, I was hopping that you would release my mother." I told her.

"Done." She said retracting her vector from my mother. My mother swayed for and second before her head snapped up. She looked at me and froze staring wide eyed at me.

"Mom." I murmured standing up. If we could of embraced then we would but unfortunately mom would only pass through me if she tried. She snapped out of it and offered me a warm smile, one that I remembered seeing often as a small child.

"Lizzy, my how much you have grown and a all mother too. I'm so proud of you." She said stepping closer to me. It warmed my heart to hear her say that. It was like with those words everything I had gone through up until now was a means to an end.

"Thanks mom." I smiled.

"Where your father?" She asked.

"He, died when I was 18." I told her straight up.

"Oh, my your already past 18? My the years blow by when your dead." She said with a soft chuckle.

"Your not upset that he died?" I asked.

"Course not my darling, I'll see him again." She beamed.

"Mom, why didn't you fight back?" I asked.

"Against who?" She questioned.

"The people who killed you. Why didn't you fight? If you fought you could have won and continued living with me and dad. Maybe then dad wouldn't of died." I stressed.

"None of that now young lady, you could of fought back with your father as well." She pointed out and it was like a knife to the heart. "See? It's not so easy is it? There's no use worrying over the should of, could of, and would ofs in life. Let the past be buried already. Focus on the present and future." She advised me.

"But, the past holds so many that are important." I pointed out.

"I'm not saying to forget about all you have learned from the past. I'm just saying not to be so....entranced with it. It doesn't matter who or why something in the past happened cause no matter what the outcome will still be the outcome. We can't stop it anymore then we can stop the changing of the seasons." She said.

"Yeah but having an AC certainly helps." I pouted defiantly not wanting to let her win, cause if she won on this subject then so did Hisoka. Speaking of Hisoka, I wonder what that ass clown is doing know? I peaked over my shoulder and found him still in the same spot staring up at clouds.

"Liz, don't be smart with me." She scolded.

"Sorry." I appologised.

"Well, what are we waiting for? Let's go home." She said with a soft smile and looked down at Meg.

"Wait, your not angry with me?" Meg asked caught off guard.

"Why would I be? You reunited me and my daughter. You're the key to reuniting all our clan sisters and brother's once and for all." She said. That's my mom for you, she has more heart then anyone else I have ever known. Meg nodded and looked down as tears welled up in her eyes. I looked to my mother as her lip quivered and she sobbed softly. My mom inclined her head towards Meg directing me to do something. So I stepped up to Meg and threw my arms around her.

"This...isn't fair." She said into my chest.

"No but when has life ever been fair to us? We need to just accept the cards we've been dealt and run with them." I told her rubbing soothing circles into her back. She sobbed even harder but eventually she stopped and once she pulled back she had a blank face.

"We must get moving, I feel like I've waisted too much time and no longer wish to do so." She said then looked to Hisoka.

"Hmm? Are we ready to keep going finally?" He asked when he realized that we were all looking to him expectantly.

"Don't be smart with me." I spat at him and began walking off in the direction of the swamp.

"Where are you going?" Meg asked coming up behind me.

"To se if Mar has risen yet, just one last time before we leave. I owe it to him." I told her.

"Liz, I have some disturbing news for you. Please stop and listen for a moment. I didn't want to tell you so soon but to let you keep on like this would be down right cruel. You see, Mar is already in the final resting place." My mother said making me go ridged.

"H...how? Why?" I asked whirling around.

"Cause, you got a new protector beforr his spirt awoken. It's like he never was your protector in the first place." She explained.

"What? No that's not fair!" I said choking back tears.

"It's how it works, I'm sorry." My mom said.

"No! It's all his fucking fault. He shoukd be the one that doesn't get to see me for a very long time, if ever! Mar was a good protector!" I said finally breaking down.

"Liz, it can't be helped. Remember what you just told me not to long ago." Meg said.

"No fuck that shit! For you it's a fucking blessing, for me it's just bullshit! Why is it that no matter what I do I get fucked over? I can't win for losing!" I screamed then spotted Hisoka. I stomped over to him face going red. "You, you are the representation of everything in my life that has gone wrong! I hate you, no no hate is too light of a word! I LOATTHHH YOOUUUU!" I bellowed in his face before stomping off.

"Liz, calm down! Where are you going?" Meg called running after me.

"Home! Somewhere the Joker won't want to stay!" I shouted back chest heaving.

"Well, at least we're going home." My mom chirpped to Meg. 'So much for getting closure from my fucking mom!' I mentally yelled.