The Lostgirl

Neverland

Neverland

I stared into his eyes and found myself walking towards him, not knowing what else to do but just go. I heard the voice in the back of my head screaming a billion things, "fictional character, suicide, stupid, moronic" but I managed to get lost in Peters eyes. He held out a hand and I took it, his fingers intertwined with mine. They fit perfectly, he smiled as he looked down at our hands "you're so cold" He sighed rather concerned, he lifted up our hands and gently kissed the back of my hand. Instant warmth and a minor shiver ran through my body. He nodded as if he had cured the plague and went to jump out the window. My feet didn't move an inch. "What are you waiting for?" "Reminder Mr. protector of Neverland I can't fly like you can. I am alas just a girl, you my friend are a mystical creature from a star in which I can't see through these..." Before I knew it I was in the air, my fuzzy socks no longer bonded with the hardwood floors of my bedroom. "I guess you're not just a girl," He smiled and before I realized what was going on we were out the window into the cold winter's night.

I didn't think the entire flight to Neverland. I pretended I was Wendy from my favorite story and just stared at the stars which grew bigger with every second we were in the air. The entire time I could feel peters thumb rub my hand almost sympathetically. It was so comforting, I was flying above my fucking city with a boy I have known for less than 15 minutes and I don't have a care in the world. What is wrong with me, as that mere thought crosses my mind I instantly realize how close we are to a world I have never seen. "Is that Neverland?" I yell, he looks back and laughs, "No that's home."

As he brought me down to this place I had never been I am immediately taken back from my surroundings. Towering trees of green with flowers blooming near my feet. Nothing I had seen back home could compare to this, not even a little. I didn't even miss Wi-Fi, and that was an achievement on my part. I didn't realize how long I had been gazing around this foreign world until Peter let go of my hand. "Come on," I followed him like a distracted puppy and I had no leash so I was free. I did miss his hand in mine, it was the life line I never knew I needed.

A small dirt path was our designated side walk and my fuzzy socks did nothing to protect my poor feet, until I realize Peter had no shoes, I laughed, out loud which I did not realize until he stopped and looked at me. "You have no shoes doesn't that hurt?" I manage to say before I begin to giggle, one because im tired and 2 because im in fucking Neverland with Peter Pan, that's number 2. "I never wear shoes at home, actually there are no shoes allowed, I forbid them." He says with his arms folded at his chest. "You are such a dork." I say with no hidden meaning "A dork!? I am no dork you see I am Peter Pan, I shall not be called a dork in my own home" He began to float off obviously annoyed but I grabbed his arm stopping him in mid air. His eyes glimmered when he looked at me. "You cant leave a fair lady in the woods with no one to guide her," I say in my best impression of Wendy Darling I could. He sighed. And fell feet first on a beautiful flower bed and sat there. Our eyes did not meet. His head fell, eyes fixated on a flower. He picked it and examined its petals and then let it go and it floated. A single tear ran down his face. I stared not knowing what to do, "Snow white in a bed of flowers waited for a prince to wake her up, the prince came and they lived happily ever after. That's how it's supposed to go right?" I nodded. I sat down next to him, and picked the flower that was floating in the air. "Happily ever after doesn't happen too often, not at all really," He sighed again and fell into my shoulder no tears this time just him.

His strawberry blond hair almost caught in my mouth but he just stayed there. My arm around his shoulder comforting his shakes, and my chin on his head unknowing that I caused this. I had to try to be her. Peter was the strongest of all, but he had a weakness and I found it. He sat up rubbed his eyes and looked at me with a pity and a passion. Glimmering green eyes, they matched the trees of this place. He was a part of this fantasy place. I didn't hesitate, I just took his hand and kissed it. What else was I supposed to do? Nothing stopped me, and it may seem minor to anyone else but no one kissed Peter Pan, but I did. I kissed him and he didn't run he didn't fly away, he was lost. He was a true lost boy at that moment.

I got up dragging him with me hand in hand. "Lead me to your quarters lost boy," He smiled a cheeky smile and lead me to a a massive tree house the size of my city block back home, "We don't usually have guests but I will tell the boys to make the lady a house, they won't fret." A whistle louder than anything I had ever heard came out of the mouth of my lost boy. My lost boy I thought utterly proud I could get used to that. Windows opened doors slammed and 8 boys rolled and ran out to greet their fair partner in crime. Until they realized me. They all stopped in unison and gazed into what seemed like my soul. "This is Ella," Peter put his arm around me showing me off to the crowd of boys. "Is she our new mother?" A small boy in a skunk hat asked. Peter's hand fell from my shoulder as did his expression, he looked at me with his sparkling eyes. "No, she's a fair lady not a mother, but I bet she has stories, great stories about us and games and mysteries." They cheered for me and I ran into the middle of them and hugged each one. "Jack" "Ben" "Alexander" "Mitz" "Sam" "Jerry" "Gale" "Jamie". Well those are all fandom names so I will have no problem with this. I thought as they said their names in a line. "Who's hungry?" Peter yelled trying to sound cheerful yet utterly failing. They all ran to a big tall door into the biggest tree house and the feasting began.

Berries and cakes and candies galore. Coconuts served as cups and leaves as plates. This cant be real I must have hit my head pretty fucking hard because this is not real. "Are you alright?" Peter places his hand on my knee comforting me, I must've spaced out. "Yes of course I'm a bit tired is all, I mean I'm used to going to bed late but after flying and walking im a bit tired I must say" I said with a yawn following my statement. "Well since the boys will be eating for a while I guess I'm tired to and as much as I could love to make you a house, why don't you just come to mine I can fix something suitable for you there?" What if he rapes you or kills you he can't be real by the way. "That sounds perfectly acceptable."

He took my hand and we flew up to a house all the way at the top of a tree close to where we sat in the flower bed. "Wow" I said out lowed as I peered off into the distance which happened to be a bright pink and blue ocean. "Great isn't it," He stood next to me arm resting on my shoulder. "I'm king of the world!" He shouted and laughed, I laughed right with him. "So I hope this hammock makes up for what you had back in your place, it doesn't have those fancy pillows but its pretty nice," He sat down and I sat down next to him, nearly passing out from exhaustion and shock. "Wait where are you going to sleep?" I exclaimed with upmost concern. "I may join you later as I don't have anywhere else to go, the boys are fine and you are all I have to worry about," "Worry about me?" "You are not my mother you never will be, but you were a lost girl and I found you, you're just a girl now, and I cant lose you again," He kissed me on the forehead and walked out on the deck and sat down facing the sunset. It was silent, you could hear a pin drop, his head was down, hands trying to block out what was coming. A single tear fell to the ground, you could hear it for miles it seemed. I shuttered, not realizing I began to cry, I cried until I fell asleep, and woke up warm.

A boy lay next to me arms around me tightly. I didn't move, I didn't want to , I felt safe, I wasn't lost I was found. He lay sound asleep, he went to move and pulled me closer, "I won't lose you," He mumbled. "I won't".