Barely Legal. [Milex]

I'll Give You Sympathy

Waving goodbye to my friends I rushed as fast as I could towards Alex's office, making up excuses about extra points in english which I certenly did not needed because I'm great at it, but they were in a hurry so they didn't take the time to care about my inocent lie.

I knew Aly would be getting ready for leaving, he told me he didn't have class on last period but he had to stay to finish some of his work.

A few hours ago we had class together, before lunch. Everything went pretty normal... except for the fact that I tried to get his attention every 10 seconds... and if he asked something and made someone else answer I'd look at him furious. But he'd make it up to me. When we were all focused on our classwork I'd look at him and he'll carefully blow a kiss at me, making me blush instantly. My way of forgiving him.

At the moment I was sitting on top of his desk as I liked to do. We were sharing a very comfortable silence while I waited for him to finish his adult chores, the very urgent question I needed to ask him was stuck at the tip of my tongue, I felt desperate but at the same time I was sure a date wouldn't be much of a deal, I mean, he already knew I loved him, this won't be a complete surprise.

Soon enough I broke the silence, I couldn't deal with the non-existing pressure. "You should sing something to me." I said shoving a few skittles inside my mouth, trying to hide my nervous smile.

"What? Now?" Alex asked looking at me, faking surprise as he started to save his stuff inside his black bag. I guess he was done for the day.

"No, not now, I mean, you don't have a guitar. So tomorrow," I shrugged. I was trying my best to look casual and relaxed but my insides were twisting. Tomorrow was saturday, we have never seen eachother on a saturday...

"Why tomorrow? What happens tomorrow?" He asked furrowing his eyebrows, still fixing some papers on top of his desk. All of his movements were making me even more anxous, I wanted him to fucking stay still for a damn second.

"Our date will happen. I'll bring a guitar," Okay, not a classic way of asking someone to go out on a date with you but it still works.

I shyly glanced at him with a small smile, breathing out all the air I was saving. He stood still and looked at me, tilting his head to the side.

"Our date?" He smirked, moving his hands to his hips as he rested all of his weigh on one leg. "Are you inviting me on a date, Miles Kane?" He asked in a funny voice, which made me roll my eyes because he knew how hard this was for me. How could he dare to joke at a time like this?

"Y-Yes I am." I said more like a question, ignoring his joking tone completely. "Why? Y-You don't wanna go?" I swallowed hard, I never considered a negative answer, I never do. My lip started trembling just by the thought.

"No, I mean yes... But uh... I..." He brought his hand to his forehead, rubbing his skin with the tip of his fingers.

"What? What is it?" I asked in a whisper, standing up from his desk to look at him properly.

He walked closer when he locked his gaze on me and I took a few steps back. I wasn't ready for excuses, I wasn't ready for a 'no', I wasn't ready to get my dreams crushed. Not now, it was too late. The only thing I can do is make mistakes. And my mistakes were made for him.

"Hey, hey, don't get upset already," he grabbed my hand quickly before I could protest or walk away, holding it tight. "Mi, there's something you need to understand and I need you to listen very carefully, okay?" I simply nodded, I couldn't take my eyes off of the floor, if I looked at him I'd start crying. "Miles, I'm an adult, I'm your teacher, letting this happen-" he motioned for me and him with his free hand. "-it's very hard for me. You need to let me think about it, about all this, I need to figure out if this is something I want to do or not. This isn't a game, this is actually dangerous, if we get caught doing the slightliest thing god knows what could happen. It's not about you, I... I actually think we have a lot in common and... I really like your company..." I smiled gently, at him this time, he wanted to say he liked me without actually saying it. Adorable. "But in the eyes of everyone this is wrong, in mine too, just a bit. I don't want to feel like... Like I'm doing something bad to you. Like I'm doing something you're not sure about. You... You're still a kid, Miles. You're close to being an adult but I already am, I'm twenty seven. I'm the one messed up between you and me and... I just need to work on it for a while. Do you understand what I'm saying?"