『 Things That Should Not Be Said/Done By Fallers When Their Family Is Around 』

89: (Don't) fall in love with Alex!

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This is gonna be a whole text and not just talking. Also sorry if it is depressing or too emotional.

There's always that guy starring at me. Always wearing a black hoodie as i never see his face. He says really bad things for me and for my family. He is always creeping at the darkest corners of my mind searching for my fears, my insecurities. When he smiles, i frown and sink into sadness. He is talking all the time making me go insane as i start talking back. People always give me those strange looks even if i don't know why. He is right there next to me talking, you can see him right? He makes me grab knives, he makes me do things that i don't want. And i cry more and more and he enjoys it, he is fed by my pain. I feel like my blankets try chocking me every time i sleep, like my body is getting weaker every day and everything is starring at myself. And then you meet a person, you go out, become friends, then besties and then here comes the dates! You feel happy, that black guy is so sad. Little butterflies are flyin in your little belly and your mind is like heaven, like you are high.

And then he just dumps you like junk and walks away

Now he is dating a different girl, has different friends, a different behavior. He is one of those "famous bitchy guys" like all these in your class. These guys that like making out, drinking until dawn, smoking cigarettes and grabbing buttcheeks. He doesn't talk to you, just throwing your books of your weak arms laughing as you emotionally die.

And years go and go.

And it's another normal morning as you wake up next to your lovely husband. You go and check your kids as they sleep peacefully and you smile. You go to make breakfast when an unexpected visitor rings your bell and you go to open the door. And here he stands, he isn't happy or sad, just a straight face.

"I'm sorry..."

He tries to apologise again sad but you can't just forgive me.

"You have left my life here and some years.. Now don't go again at my kids' school or near me.."

And you just close the door right there as you lean on it and he leans too from the other side putting his head between his hands.

"Fatal mistakes are those i have made.."

Your both lips move in sync.