Protection, Zack Merrick, All Time Low

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Kimberly

Zack and I haven't spoken much lately when it comes to children, but I decided that if he doesn't want kids, that's alright, although one of us would need someone to take care of us when we're old and gray, and one of us died.

I don't like thinking of that, but it's how it will be one day.

We're on our way to LA, in our big old bus, and our tired eyes, and I have hardly said a word to anyone, just picking up books and reading them.

Sleeping has yet again become nearly impossible, and it shows. Zacks snores have been louder than usual, and I've been over thinking everything. I'll go to bed when he's in there laying down, and I'll try and sleep, and I'll finally fall asleep hoursnlater, cuddling into him like nothing is going wrong.

Nothing is going wrong, I'm just sad again.

I'm happy to be back on the road, but it comes with a lot of stress, because the ground is moving, and my eyes are bloodshot, and I have a hard time focusing, and the person I would talk to about all of this, is dead.

Alex drags me into the back room, "What's up? You're not yourself."

"I'm just, I'm sad." I admit. "I miss Aunt Lydia because I want to talk to her about things, but I can't because she's dead."

"You can talk to me." Alex urges.

"I want a child, and Zack doesn't." I frown.

"Well, why doesn't he?"

"Why didn't you?" I grumble. "He doesn't want to have a kid and then go on tour and leave the child for a while, and I get that, but I just long for a baby."

"Yeah, but it's really emotionally challenging. I miss my Lucas already and it's only been a couple of hours. I feel like I'm going to miss his first steps."

"I don't think you will miss him taking his first steps." I smile, assuringly.

"You and Zack should talk about having a kid again, and this time you need to tell him how you feel."

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I lay down for bed in the bunk, after taking some sleep aid vitamins. Zack climbs in a good ten minutes afterwards. No one else is in the bunk rooms, because they're out getting dinner, and I asked Zack to stay back, getting Jack to make a sexual remark and for me to just shrug.

"I know you don't want to talk about it," He says immediately, "But I see how upset you are, and I've thought about it. If you want a child, is be happy to have a child with you." Zack smiles, "I just want to wait until we're married."

"I was just going to tell you that if you don't want a child yet, that it's okay, but I want to have some of my eggs freezed, so when we're ready, we can do have that."

"I don't think we'll need that, honestly." Zack smiles. "It's a few more months, baby."

"I can't wait to marry you." I kiss him. "I love you."

"I love you too, baby." He responds, and I tell him to try not to wake me, and I fall asleep in his arms, glad I'd finally be able to relax.

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