LiarLiar

Chapter 9 - It's My Life

*Justin'sPointOfView*

I know it's wrong. I know I shouldn't but I can't stop myself. I want to know her. I need to know her to get her and to make her mine. Why am I so addicted to her? She's like a drug and now my blood won't stop itching, someone needs to get me out of this condition. There is something about this one, more than the pretty face and the perfect body. She's sassy, she puts up a facade of hating me when really she's a fucking crazed fan and probably wants to scream every time I touch her or talk to her. She's different, she clearly doesn't care about my fame or money and that's hard to find.

I never really have felt like this before, there is something inside me telling me I need her. Maybe she's my escape; maybe she is the one that will stop me from going insane. I love my job and I love my fans don't get me wrong but sometimes it's just too much, I'm only human I need a break and everyone seems to forget that. With having the paps on my case and everyone believing the shit they put out there it is unreal how carful I have to be. I know I put myself up for this and I don't regret anything but at the end of the day I'm nineteen, I want to do stupid things and get into trouble and mess up, do things I'm not supposed to, have girlfriends without them being threatened but most of all I just want to learn from my own mistakes instead of being told "this is good and this is bad" but I can't, and all because I'm famous, I'm Justin Bieber, I have a lot of young people who look up to me and I know that but it's time I start putting my foot down. I only have one life and I deserve to live it the way I want.

I have read a lot of her diary and I learned that she gave her baby boy, -Lucas I believe she named him- up for adoption to someone named Laura because she was unable to have her own children. I also learned that she managed to hide the whole thing from her parents and that she "wants nothing more than to be in my protective arms." How cute. She writes everything in here, but she doesn't just write, she's writing to me, she's speaking to me, like I'm actually there right there next to her, as if I'm going to make everything better, like I'm the only one there for her. Do I feel guilty reading all of this? Well yeah, of course I do, I mean who wouldn't? It's her personal stuff she obviously keeps it under lock and key for a reason, but keeping the key and lock together, not a smart idea. I'm horrible person but I'm not entirely in the wrong am I? She is writing to me after all so she must want me to see it, she has said she hopes one day she can give me this book so there's gotta be something deep down inside her heart that wants me to see this.

I turned the page in the diary and began to read again.

"Dear Justin,

I've been working alongside you for about a week now and I have to say it has been amazing. But this thing you have with the dancers? I don't get it. I never thought you were like this but I guess nothing is ever as we imagine it to be. I see you with them and all I want is for it to be me. But I do not want to be just one of your girls, I want to be your only girl and you probably think I'm with Christopher right? Wrong, it's all fake, it's all to "make you jealous" but I don't like this I don't care if you're no good for me. I know want I want and I know what's good for me and what's not. He's not my father I can do what I want. Maybe someday I will give this diary to you and maybe you'll learn how messed up my life is. You've kept me going all this time. Thank you."

Fake relationship? Wow, I knew something was weird about them two. So Christopher wants Charlotte, and she wants me and I want her but he doesn't want her to be with me because he's jealous so he told her a load of bullshit to make me look bad he's told her it's a "fake relationship" just so he can be with her. Well won't this be interesting.

"Justin you in there" I heard Ryan's voice. Groaning I got out of bed hiding the diary under my pillow before opening the door to let him in.

"How can I help you?" I greeted

"Rehearsals start in 15 bro" he reminded me.

"Yeah, yeah, I'm ready I'll be just there get the guys together"

"How are you all?" I greeted all the dancers with a smile and a hug, well a hug for the girls hand shake for the boys

"Charlotte can I see you outside?" I asked holding my hand out for her and she took it following me outside

"Yeah, what's wrong boss?" She smiled cheekily

"I think this is yours" I said handing her the diary

"Oh my god, no, shit I mean yes. I uh I'm so sorry I, did you read it?" She panicked snatching the book from my hands

"Hey, calm down. I didn't read anything" I lied, but she's having a panic attack so I need to act like I don't know anything.

"Thank you so much" she beamed throwing her arms around me and I wrapped my arms around her waist

"Anytime beautiful" I whispered in her ear pulling her back so I could look at her, taking in her beauty I licked my lips drawing myself closer to her tucking a loose strand of hair behind her ear running my thumb across her bottom lip as we both started leaning in slowly.

"You two back in" Nick, -one of my dancers- laughed shaking his head at us.

Charlotte and I shared a few quick words and made our way back in trying to keep the tension to an absolute minimum as we entered the hall.

"Let's get started then" I called as everyone got into position. The music started with loud blast and we all followed the choreography -which we had been rehearsing for a while now- to the T not stopping in the middle once and without any accidents. I have to say I am extremely proud of my team, I have got a strong one.

"Great work guys enjoy your day, well the little you have left of and remember rest up tour kicks off in just a week"...