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Chapter 34 - Love Hate

*Justin'sPointOfView*

Charlotte has been home for about a week now, she didn't lose her memory she just had events mixed up but she's getting better, I still can't speak to her. I'm afraid all I'll do is scream and send her back to the place she was in and I can't afford that.

"You haven't spoken to me at all" Charlotte stated rolling into the kitchen in her wheel chair, they were going to give her crutches but with her broken bones that would not have went down easy so instead she has one of those electric wheelchairs.

"You promised you wouldn't leave me alone" she cried "but I'd rather be alone than live here with you ignoring me" she wiped her tears before rolling out of the kitchen. Not talking to her broke my heart but I can't risk it, not yet.

"He hates me" I heard her cry "I should've died he would've been happier" she sobbed, I think she's on the phone. Sliding down the wall I listen to her conversation

"I didn't mean to hurt him... He'll never forgive me for this... Please come see me I'm so alone here"

I couldn't help the tears pool in my eyes as she cried until it was hard for her to breath and the next thing I heard was her phone smashing to the floor

"I hate myself so much, I'm sorry Justin" she cried

Walking out of the kitchen I walked past her

"At least look at me" she screamed

Taking a deep breath I turned to face her

"Do you really hate me that much?" She begged to know "is it because I thought I still had Lucas?" shaking my head I sprinted upstairs locking myself in my room. I can't take this anymore. These past few days have been nothing but hell. I never knew what to expect getting involved with her and now that I know what it's like I would take back the day I kissed her. I would two back the day I focused on her eyes and let her take me away to world where everything was good and happy. I would take away all of it and I could he happy with Lilly since the other girls are off limits. I could live a normal life but now that's never going to be possible, I'll never have a normal life with her and that is something I guess I just need to live with. Leaving her isn't the solution, ending the relationship I have built with this insane, fucked up girl isn't going to fix anything.

*Charlotte'sPointOfView*

I can't stand living like this I'm about to go insane. I hate it I feel so isolated I've done nothing but cry and he didn't seem to care, I don't know how much longer I can take this pain.

"Knock knock" the voice I had been waiting for called from the door

"Liam" I beamed rolling over to him. He leaned down to hug me kissing my cheek

"How you feeling champ?" he pushed my chair into the main area of the living room

"Horrible" I sighed "help me up"

"Have you been stressing?" He asked lifting me out of my chair letting me sit on the couch with my leg levitated

"A lot" I admitted "what if I can never dance again?"

"You know I'm not letting that happen" he promised

"I feel useless" I sunk into him

"Who's here?" Justin shouted from upstairs but not for me to answer

"It's Liam" I shouted back anyway

"How is he?" Liam asked stroking my hair

"I wouldn't know, he doesn't talk to me" I shrugged

"Like, at all?" He asked in shock

"Mmhm" I hummed

"I'm so sorry Char" he wrapped his arms around me carefully

"It's alright" I smiled "could you help me into the chair I need a drink"

"I'll get it" he tucked my hair back kissing my head

"Thank you" I smiled

"You're really weak" Liam acknowledged helping me sit on my bed in my new room downstairs

"Thanks" I laughed

"When's the last time you slept?" He asked seriously

"Two days ago"

"I'm staying with you tonight to make sure you sleep" he stated making sure I was comfortable before he stripped to his boxers

"Do you really have to sleep in boxers" I groaned

"Nothing you haven't seen before" he appreciated with a laugh sliding into bed next to me

"Shut up" I slapped his chest with my good hand

"Does he come here?" Liam asked

"Nope, he only sees me if I go to him" I hopelessly sighed

"Good" Liam breathed leaning over me

"No-no Liam we can't"

"I don't want to have sex I know we can't" he confirmed

"Good" I smiled

"But we can still kiss" he brushed his lips against mine before kissing me slowly, I got the usual butterflies like I did every time he kissed me but the feeling of guilt was right there unavoidable as I kissed him back feeling the spark between us. With Liam there's always been something, some unexplained chemistry I will never understand. He makes me feel special.

"This is so wrong" I moaned as he kissed my neck but the worst part was I was enjoying this too much. This felt good, this us what I needed from Justin but he didn't even look at me so there's no hope

"When have you ever done the right thing?" He laughed kissing me quickly before pulling away.

"Shut up" I rolled my eyes at him.

"Shit!" I spat as there was a knock on the door "j-just a second" I called

"Take your clothes go to the toilet and come out dressed" I pushed Liam off the bed waiting until it was safe before letting Justin in, walking in silently he gazed around the room

"Uh, is it okay if Liam stays?" I asked as he walked out the toilet fully clothed, giving me a soft look he nodded "thank you"

"Thanks bro, someone's gotta keep an eye on champ" Liam stated

"What he means is, he wants to make sure I'm getting on okay and no lying when I say I'm fine" I quickly spoke I don't know why, I should just let him say what he wants and hope each word feels like a knife.

"No, what I mean is I need to look after you-"

"Because my mum asked him to" I finished his sentence glaring at him, I love Liam for coming to make sure I'm okay because Justin couldn't care less but I can't have him hurt Justin, if anyone is going to hurt him it'll be me.

"Yeah, Alexa wanted me to stay with her a couple of nights"

He didn't say anything -of course- as he left the room.

"Should've let me kick the princesses ass" Liam scoffed stripping once again

"Don't please" I begged

"I won't but that doesn't mean I don't want to" he lay next to me

"He's innocent" I argued

"Ain't he always"

"Don't be like that" I pouted

"You don't love him" Liam stated knowingly

"That's not true, I do love him" I spat angrily

"If you loved him you wouldn't kiss me" he smiled at me kissing my shoulder "goodnight champ"

"Night boss" I turned over trying to get into a good sleeping position which is hard with broken bones. I haven't had a good nights sleep since I woke up in the hospital, everything has been a blur. I'm still confused about a lot but I'm trying to remember my life.

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