LiarLiar

Chapter 10 - I Can Not Take It

*Charlotte'sPointOfView*

The tour has finally kicked off and tonight we put on our first show, I would be lying to myself if I said I was not completely and utterly terrified of what lies ahead of me because Justin has asked me and Hayley to switch dance parts so now I am the one who has to dance with Justin and spend extra hours alone with him rehearsing every couple of days during tour to keep on top of our game. I have no idea what to do, I am happy, in fact I am ecstatic but after what happened last week I don't know if I can face him, I have been trying to avoid him all week, only talking to him when it is completely necessary which just happens to be an awful lot unfortunate for me...

After all he did have my diary and then we did almost... Kiss. I want nothing more than to kiss this boy believe me. When we were out there alone, he held me, it felt so magical, he wanted to kiss me I could feel it in his touch, the way his warm hands cupped my face, his gentle, soft fingers on my lips thinking about it seems so... Perfect, yet impossible as if I was in a dream and I imagined the whole thing. But I didn't, it happened and I want it to happen again, I'm just scared. After all I am supposed to be Christopher's "girlfriend" but I'm thinking a "break up" is appropriate because if I am being honest I can not take it any longer. I'm done pretending I don't know what I'm gaining from this or who it's helping, perhaps he just doesn't want Justin and I to hit it off, maybe he's jealous. I have to figure him out, why are boys so confusing I will never understand.

Whipping out my diary I began to write but this time I didn't write to Justin, I just wrote, I wrote out everything that's been bothering me starting from Christopher to Justin having my diary and the girls hating me. I poured my heart out -like I always do- noting down every detail till the end and then slipped the diary back into my purse and went looking around the arena we are performing in tonight and not to my surprise I go out to the stage to see Justin sucking face with none other than Lilly, his hands gripping her for dear life, god, they might as well be naked and fucking. Her leg hitched onto his hip and her arms wrapped around his neck keeping him close to her.

"What you do want?!" Lilly spat as her eyes flickered open catching a glimpse of me and pushing Justin back.

"Oh nothing" I shrugged with a smile "just looking around"

Growling at me she stormed away fixing herself after Justin whispered something to her.

"I was actually just about to come look for you" Justin laughed walking over to me

"And whys that?"

"I want to show you something come with me" he said grabbing my hand and yanking me backstage. I don't know how I feel about this his hands were just all over that slut.

"Where are you taking me" I protested

"Up here" he pointed to a staircase "ladies first"

I held onto the metal banister and took the stairs up two at a time with Justin tailing behind me.

"Justin are we allowed up here?" I looked back at him shuffling back so he could lead the way again

"No, but stay quite and follow me"

"What if we get caught?" I hesitantly followed him, there's all sorts of wires and other high tech stuff up here

"It's not like we're doing anything Yknow bad" he smirked licking his lips "come here" he held his hand out and I took it without question as he pulled me into a dark little corner where we both sat

"What are we doing here?" I asked nervously

"I like to be alone sometimes, I always find a place in most if not every arena where no one can find me" he smiled like it was nothing

"But why am I here?"

"My turn to ask questions" he laughed "I know about you and Chris, I know it's fake, why?"

"I um, it's just that... How do you know?" I stuttered, what am I supposed to tell him I don't really know myself I can't explain it. This is hell. I'm screwed. Fuck!

"It's obvious, don't worry, just finish with him ok? For your own good" He put his hands over mine rubbing his thumb over the back of my hand as he looked into my eyes like he was looking for answers to an unspoken question and before I knew it I was falling back, slowly. I felt Justin's arm tuck under me holding me up so I wouldn't end up laying on the dusty flooring.

"J-Justin what are doing?" I tried shuffling away but he had a grip on me

"I know you want to, just as much as I do. Sh don't worry" he traced his thumb along my lip and for a moment my breath stopped and my body went numb, my mind is racing with all sorts of thoughts about weather or not this is a good idea. He is not wrong, not at all, I want kiss him, I want this more than anything but I can't. At least I don't think I can. I shouldn't... Right? No I can't question this too much I'm going to drive myself to insanity.

"I can't" I hesitated

"Sh don't speak" I felt his warm breath on my skin his lips brushed across mine, every muscle in my body clenched as he yanked me up bringing me up closer to him, my stomach churning and like an involuntary response I leant into his lips just as he lent into me and he kissed me, he really kissed me. His lips moved slowly with mine, hesitant at first I returned his sweet, gentle kisses. We stayed like that for a while before he slowly pulled away from me.

"Wow" I breathed out tucking my hair behind my ear. That was the moment I have been dreaming of for years. Butterflies exploded within me and I couldn't help but smile.

"Our little secret" Justin whispered pecking my lips once more "come lets go"

I pushed myself up and followed Justin back down the metal staircase.

"Sound check lets go" Justin shouted making his way to the stage and slowly everyone was there.

Show time. My first ever show with thee Justin Bieber. This is scarier than it seems, trust me.

There's a lot of "touching" in these dance routines and I don't think I'm ready.

"Hey there you" I heard a familiar voice behind me

"Ryan" I smiled hugging him tightly. Ryan and I have gotten really close, he is so cute and sweet.

"You are going to be great" he reassured

"I'm so nervous" I laughed fumbling with my fingers as I heard the beat kick in, we aren't on till the second song so I have a few minutes to panic.

"Don't be, you're good, you're really good" he wrapped his arms around me giving me a tight squeeze. I shook my head laughing quietly before pecking his cheek and running off to where we were to enter from.

So far so good we are all following routine, smiling and getting through it. The sound of Justin's voice never gets old he sounds like an angel.. Kisses like one too.

The show is amazing, all these screaming fans, it's all so unreal and it's all for him. He loves this, he's always smiling on stage no matter what his day has been like, when he's around his fans there is no stopping that heavenly smile.

After the encore we all sat, well, lay all over, Justin's dressing room taking a moment to digest the whole event and let it all soak in. It was truly something special, hearing about the connection he has with the fans is one thing but when you're on that stage with him, you can feel it and you know how much this all means to him.

After quite a long while of lying around we freshened up a little and headed back to the busses and off to the next place...