Blinded

4

Song for this chapter:
Pills N Potions - Nikki Minaj

Lexi's POV

"Pills n Potion, we're overdosing." I sang. I felt myself feeling upset. I hated Jay. I hated Jay with my life. I'd do anything to get Jay to leave me alone. But I love him.

A tear rolled down my cheek. No, Lexi, hold your head up. You cannot cry over Jay. He is a dickhead! Don't you dare cry over him I told myself.

I found myself picking up my phone. No Lexi you can't call Jay. He doesn't miss you, and he definitely doesn't love you back.

"I'm angry but I still love you. I still love, I still love, I still love, I still love, I still Lo-o-ove." I sang. This song was really depressive.

No! I got up. No, Lexi. You are not crying over a man-whore. If you are, than that makes you a double whore. I wiped my eyes. I'm going to go out. Get him off my mind.

I put in some clean clothes and walked out of the house. I hopped into my mustang and drive out to the shopping vicinity. I walked around a while but found myself not interested in anything but food. I walked to a restaurant, Pancake Parlour. I love pancakes.

"Table for one?" The waiter asked. I nodded my head. He took me to a booth and I sat as he gave me a menu. I remembered coming here with Jay. I sighed. I really do miss hi- no. no I don't miss him!

"Hello, Mam, may I take your order?" A young man came out and asked. I nodded. "I'll have the salted caramel crunch, thanks." He nodded and walked away.

Man... I'm so lonely. I giggled a little to myself. I really am.

I got my phone out to check for any messages. Secretly hoping there were some from Jay. Nothing.

"Uh hey..." A male voice said from above me. I thought it might have been the waiter. I looked up and my eyes met with Jays. "Are you following me?!" I asked annoyed.

It seemed that every time I'm around him I hate him, and when I'm not I miss him. "Uh, no. Lexi, I'm sorry you thought that." He sighed. "It's okay." I forgave. "May I sit?" Jay asked. I wasn't sure if that was a good idea. I mean I want nothing to do with him.

What am I kidding of course I want him to sit with me. "Yea." I looked down in defeat.

Jay shuffled through and placed himself in the booth opposite me. "So, I've been wondering if we could catch up for a while now." Jay started. I kept my head down. "I know." I complained. "Uh... Maybe we can use this time?" Jay offered. "Whatever." I replied coldly. I didn't want us to take things any further.

"Lexi." Jay started. I looked up at him. "You know. I... I... Agh." He grumbled. What is he trying to say. "I... I miss you." He quickly spoke. I was taken aback. "What?" I asked as my immediate reaction and then covered my mouth. "Lexi, I miss you." Jay sighed. He does? No, he's playing you Lexi that's all he does, remember. "No." I said. He looked a bit shocked. "What do you mean, no?" Jay asked concerned. I breathed out and bit my tongue a little. Be kind stupid mouth. "You don't miss me. You never loved me! How can you miss someone you never loved?" I asked before realising how bitchy I sounded. "Lexi-" "no just shut up Jay. I don't care about what you have to say. You broke my heart so bad!" I yelled.

At this point the whole restaurants attention was on us. I felt my cheeks turn red. "Let's go somewhere else to talk about this?" Jay offered. I shook my head. "No Jay. I am sick of your bullshit. Whatever you have to say you can say in public." I demanded pressing my index finger to the table. "Lexi, come on." He pleaded. "No, Jay. I am not falling for your game again. You broke me so badly." I felt tears rush to my eyes but I refused to let them fall. "I love you Lexi, I always have, I just-" "you just what? Don't know how to treat your girlfriend? Ha? Is that how it is now?!" I looked at him with hurt in my eyes. Jay didn't reply. "Because, Jay, I waited so long for you to come around. But you didn't, you just continued to fuck all those prostitutes. I mean, what were you even keeping me for?" I questioned. Jay just looked at me. "I... I was scared." He mumbled. Agh! He is such a pathetic man hoe. "You were scared?" I asked with a threatening tone. "Aww... I'm sorry little princes Jay. Did I scare you?" I asked in a baby and satirical tone. I saw the hurt in Jay's eyes. "You know what." He got up. "I'm sorry for coming here it was a mistake. All I wanted to do was say sorry." Jay got up he rested his first on the table and waited. I knew he was waiting for an answer but I had nothing to say.

I will admit I felt bad, but I was telling him the truth. And sometimes the truth hurts. Jay shrugged his shoulders as if he were saying 'alright then' before walking away and leaving me there by myself. I felt terrible. "Wait Jay!" I called lifting myself from he seat. He looked over his shoulder at me but shook his head and I noticed a tear in his eye.

What have I done?

I messed up so badly. I felt tears roll down my checks. "Here you go." The waiter gave me my stack of pancakes. "Are you okay?" He asked as he saw my face. I was too upset to say or do anything cause I knew that if I did I would just break down. He understood looked up. "If you need anything, I'm here." He said as he placed a piece of paper on my table with his number on it.

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