Mommy, why are you crying?
Just last week you said you were happy to be blessed with me
Big smiles and tiny jumps of joy
You told your touchy feely friends that you hoped I would be a girl
Even bought me a fluffy pink blankie to keep me warm
So why the sudden change of heart?
Mommy, why are your hands shaking?
Maybe you could use the blankie you bought to keep your frail hands warm
I don't understand!
Everyone else seems so excited to finally see me but you
Even if my hands were just created
I would hold yours until they stopped shaking
And maybe you'd feel a little bit more loved
Mommy, where is my daddy?
I heard you calling his name last night
Maybe he just couldn't hear you, or he was in the other room
The only person I've come to love is you, but I can't help wanting to love him too
I wonder if I'll look like him, or if I'll be funny like him liked you hoped long ago
Was it something I did to make him leave us?
I promise I'll be good when I finally come out to meet you both
Mommy, why do you feel so weak?
You stopped eating in the morning and at night time
I miss the yummy food you use to share with me
And I can feel it when you fall over and get dizzy
You're not the only one who's tummy hurts when you don't eat all day
I'm sorry I keep kicking you
I just thought that if I reminded you that I was still here, you would let me eat the food we use to enjoy together
Mommy, aren't you sleeping anymore?
Laying in bed with sad music playing in your ears keeps us both up
It's warm in here, but you shiver in our big bed all alone
You keep the TV on so you don't fall asleep and have bad dreams
Sometimes you turn the volume down and try to listen to me
If you could here me, I'd tell you to lay down and take a rest
But even when you do sleep, you still look so tired
Mommy, why did you hurt us?
Cutting the soft, thin skin that helped create me
Each time you do it, it's hurting me too
If you can't love yourself, how can you love me?
We may be two different people, but I can feel your pain
I really hope you can stop before I meet you
Seeing scratches on your arms is gonna make me sad, when I want to be happy around you
Mommy, why are you eating so much candy?
Taking them by the handfuls and swallowing sour tasting juice along with it
All the different colors make me feel really funny
I can't even feel my tiny toes and fingers
Are you sure they're going to make you happy like you whispered last night?
They make you get sick and throw away all the things you fed me earlier
I don't like them that much
Mommy, where are you taking me?
I don't remember this road we're going down
Your driving really fast, it's scaring me
I just heard a voice say that we're at the doctor's office
Are they going to make you feel better?
I hope so, I miss the way you would talk to me
Maybe he can fix you in a way I can't
Mommy, why don't you love me?
What are these doctors doing to you?
Something cold and hard is starting to touch me and I can't get away from it
I think they're trying to take me out of you
Please make it stop
I'm getting really tired and I cant feel your heart beat anymore
Why are these strange people taking me away?
Mommy, please help me!
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Please, think of the life your child could have before you take away their right to live it.
-TaylorMarie
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The Things I Notice
ПоэзияAnother installment to my poem book series. Read and enjoy