The Things I Notice

Skinny Killed The Girl

We weighed ourselves in gym today

I didn't want the boys to see

My teacher smiled and shook his head

For I was the wrong size to be

My shorts fit okay

But my shirt would often lump

Jump rope was next, I couldn't do that many

Because my thighs would jiggle when I jumped

The class would stop and stare

At my sweaty head and red face

How could someone in their own body

Feel so out of place?

In the locker room now

I changed as quickly as I could

My friends didn't have the body that I did

Big, like no girl should

We went to lunch next period

My crush was in the room, his girlfriend apart of the lot

Jessica was heavier then me last year

But I guess he forgot

Eating salads and crackers

She dropped half her weight

Pulling him in with the curl of her finger

I guess I was to late

Skipping my lunch

I decided to walk home

The bus was full of mean skinny girls

And frankly, I just wanted to be alone

Later that night

I didn't want dinner

Hoping that if I start skipping meals

I'll get thinner and thinner

So the rest of the week

I ran and worked out

Not eating to much

Now, calories is what I count

But my skin still feels heavy

My body far to big

Yet friend began to notice me

Liking what I had did

And so it went on

The constant body game

Even with my changing self

My mind set will stay the same

For any which or any way

I will become a new

Making the people regret the day

They douted the fat girl they once knew

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It's not a competiotion, it's not a competition, it's not a competiton.....

-TaylorMarie