Complicated

Chapter 28

Lydia's POV

"What is this Jordan" I said again

He didn't say anything, he just looked at me with a scared face

"Well, to me it looks like you and Shanda, and this photo was taken not long before you and I started taking" I said almost yelling

"Lyd.." he whispered

"Don't Lyd me" I said interrupting him. "Why didn't you tell me?"

He walked closer to me and grabbed my hands. "I didn't want to ruin anything between us" he said looking into my eyes.

"Why would it have ruined anything? she's been trying to break us up for months now and I couldn't figure out why, but now It all makes sense" I said putting the pieces together for him.

I pulled my hands away from him "I just don't understand why you kept it from me" I said walking away.

"Lydia please" he said catching up to me.

"What" I stopped and turned around to face him

"Baby why are you getting so upset, it's the past and it doesn't even matter anymore, besides aren't her and Chris a thing now" he said grabbing my hands again.

"That's not the point" I said shaking my head. "I told you about Chris and I didn't have to, Shanda has been nothing but a bitch towards me and you couldn't even tell me why? You knew this the entire time while I've been wondering. Jordan, we've talked about it and all you said was that you had no idea why she was doing it" I ranted.

"I'm sorry, I just didn't think she was worth mentioning" he explained

"Don't think she was worth mentioning? I saw the way she was looking at you earlier, she was looking at you like she's in love with you"

"And that means I feel the same way?"  He spat.

"I don't know what it means, I don't know what you two had or what you felt for her and I'm terrified we won't work out and she's going to be there waiting" I said throwing my hands in the air and walking away again.

"Don't you realized that I don't even notice her? You said you saw her looking at me but did you see me looking at you? I have eyes for you Lydia, not her" he yelled as he followed me

We stood in silence in the middle of my living room, I didn't know what else to say but I was mad.

"Jordan she hates me because I'm with you, she is going to do everything in her power to break us apart don't you get that?"

"I'm not going to let that happen! How many times to I have to say this Lydia? I love you, not her"

We both went quiet.

"Lydia I'm sorry" he said before pulling me into a hug. "Shanda and I were nothing, we texted and hung out a couple times but she means nothing to me okay?"

"Lydia I love you more than anything, I can't lose you over something like this" he said into my ear

"One of the first times I saw you, I was afraid to talk to you. When I finally talked to you I was afraid to like you because I didn't think you'd ever like me back, when I first liked you, I was afraid I'd fall in love with you. And now that I love you, I'm terrified of losing you. Baby we can't let this get between us." He said as he stroked his hand across my cheek

I looked into his eyes and realized everything would just be okay if I just forgive him, this is such a stupid reason to be mad and I could just fall into his arms and everything will be perfect again.