October 5th, 2016
Confusing; that's how I'm going to describe today. I'm such a bad girlfriend and I feel like I'm just lying to you every single day. I love you so much, but I'll never stop loving her as well. She was my first love- and rejection hurt like a motherfucker. She never wanted me or could love me how I love her until now. I can tell- I know -she's hurting so much and she needs me more than ever, but I'm taken now. After that heartbreak I always thought there would never be anyone else for a very long time; but then you came along. I love you and I'm yours now, I can't go after her anymore and I'm not the girl I was 2 months ago.
