December 15th, 2016
Only one more day until semester break and my mind is clearing up. With out you talking to me I can focus on what I want to do until I can be with you. I think you said high school was that time but I'm not totally sure. Also now that I'm not completely consumed by wonderful thoughts of you (unfortunately) I can think about her. She's not you and never will be- but I do still have feeling for her. She was taking to a boy on our bus when she thought I wasn't listening, but I was. And I'm almost certain she was taking about her and I. I do want to be with her but I do t really think I'm ready to take on another relationship so soon. I'm still holding on to because I love you. I really don't want to let you go. I want you to tell me you were stupid for letting us break up because I am too. I want you to hold her in your arms and tell me it's all really going to be ok.
Guess I really just want both of you even though that not even close to possible.
