December 21st, 2016
FUCK FUCK FUCK
What am I gonna do. I want you but you say we're not 100%
So if we you can't get your parents to let you date or what your trying to do then I have no one. I hate to say this but she's my fall back. Yes I really do like her and she's not just to help me get over you - but I love you and she's had so long. After all this time I just don't feel as strong for her as I do for you. I'm putting a lot of trust in you, you have to fix us and make things right. I wish I could help but it's not my parents in the way: it's yours. I will give you all the time you need but with every passing day the pain of what I sent her will get stronger. I feel like a hella bad person for doing that to her but she has hurt me to. It's not fun telling someone you think you love them- but they tell you they'll only every see you as a friend. The best part is that what she said was a total lie because now she likes me back because she got jealous. Literally worst timing.
