December 29th, 2016
God I need you right now. After being with you for so long last night it hurts to be without you. All I could think about today was how nice it would be to just fucking die already. You say it's possible for me to be happy, but do you really know? No - no one knows if I can be happy because if I could I would have probably figured it out by now. I don't want to be depressed and hate living anymore. I just want you.
