A Broken Heart

Freedom

Freedom is a lovely thing.
No more feeling trapped.
No more constant discomfort.
No more us.

I know I never told you this, but I feel that you should know.
There were days I felt like shit.
Days I broke down and cried.
Days I almost relapsed.
Because of you.

I do not mean to make you guilty.
No.
I just think you need to know.

You make your partners feel like shit.
You make them feel pressured and uncomfortable.
You make them feel uneasy.
And I don't think you even know.

When we started dating,
He told me all of this.
He warned me about you.
But did I listen ... No.

I wish I would have.
He was so right.
You are everything he said you were.
You are just as much of an ass as everyone said.

I know that sounds really bad.
But, honestly, that's how you made us feel.
You made me guilty, pressured, and uncomfortable all at the same time.

You say that I was abusive,
But please, tell me how.
I never wrongfully hit you.
I gave you a light hearted smack when you did something inappropriate or mean,
But you knew that when we started dating.

How was I the abusive one?
You're the one who made me feel like shit!
You didn't even notice!
You didn't even care!!

We ended badly.
That's not the way I wanted to end things.
You know I'm horrible with that kinda stuff.
But honestly, I don't regret it.
I'm not sorry.

You got pissed and walked off.
I was going to try to explain it to you,
But you couldn't stand to be around me that long.
I didn't want everybody behind us.
I didn't want them all there.

So, enjoy your freedom.
I hope you finally learn.
You may not even read this, but I sure hope you do.
You can't expect to keep a relationship.
Not if you constantly put them down.

Yours truly.
Jo.

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A/N:

This was originally supposed to be a short poem, but we see how that turned out. I mean, it kinda became a letter to my ex. I honestly don't care who reads this. If YOU read this, then good. If not, oh well. I do still care about people. You guys don't know how hard it was for me to do this today and know what it might cause him to do. This decision has been thought of a lot recently and I contemplated it immensely prior to making it. I just felt that when you were always avoiding someone, that it wasn't supposed to be. I hope you guys have better luck than I do.

With love,
Jo