Killafornia

XXII.

Killafornia

<>Hours Later<>

CJ

"Are you sure about your decision?" One of the lawyers asked me as I got up from the table, adjusting my tie and motioning for him to step out of our section. "You can easily fight-"

"Judge already made her decision and I'm for sure set on mine. Imani is nothing but a spoiled selfish brat and if I have to take her home and bare the responsibility of her... I'll end up behind bars for either child abuse if not murder. Y'all don't know her like I do and some time in juvy should make her realize just how easy she had life." 

"Let's say she gets out before she's eighteen-"

"I'll be right back in this room demanding emancipation and then she's on her own." I walked out of the court room following behind the lawyer. He was over there trying to defend her till I finally spoke up and said she was guilty of everything. Imani is old enough to know what's right and wrong and she needs to face the consequences when she does something wrong just like everyone else does in the world. 

"Sending a child out on their own isn't the best thing, CJ. I've seen cases where older siblings emancipate their younger ones and the younger ones end up on drugs, no education and behind bars. Only a small percentage actually make it on their own." He said with concern but that concern wasn't about to convince me or the next stoned nigga to come walking up this way. 

"I could care less about Imani. She's had it too easy and she fucked up so now she has to deal with it. I'll tell you just how selfish she is; I've been takin' care of her ass for so long and just because she got mad at me, she got me locked up on drug charges. She constantly biting the hand that feeds her and now that the enforcer is no longer there to make me feed her, she can starve for all I care." The both of us were stopped by a couple of male officers, in fact it was the ones who escorted Imani out of the room after the ruling. 

"CJ, we'd like to offer you the chance to say any last words or goodbyes before we take her-"

"Take her. She's dead to me." I said with a smile. "Thank you for everything but I need to get going. Got a lot to prepare for." Shaking everyone's hand, I excused myself from the small circle we were standing in. As I walked, I pulled the tie off completely since I was officially done here and slipped off the jacket, draping it over my forearm. Next thing on my list is to get all the shit in her room packed up and put in the storage area in the garage. I could probably sell her junk but I have plenty of time to do that. At least now we have a room just for the baby and then there's Nana's room that I'm just gonna leave as is. 

12:03 p.m. -Me: Are you done doing whatever it is you're doing? If so, give me a call. 

Vanity still refused to tell me where she was going and she ended up finding her own ride... I don't know why she's being so stubborn about it but I need to learn to not get worked up over her moods like that. It's just not worth it, plus I'm starting to feel emotionally and physically drained. 

I took a seat in the car, rested my hands on the wheel and then let my head all onto the back of my hands. I'm gonna head to Rack City's and see what he's up to till I get word about Vanity. I don't feel like dealing with the funeral director right away. Between all this, right there in the center of my attention was the fact Vanity was pregnant with my child that will be in this world in about four months. It's honestly scary to think that someone so small and defenseless will have the biggest impact in one's life. 

I'm not gonna lie, there was a part of me that was hoping Vanity would opt of abortion because I get a gut feeling that this baby is bringing on more than she can handle. It concerns me that she might just leave when the baby won't stop crying and she can't figure out why- I just see this as a rude awakening for her and that's stressing me out. If I talk to her about it, she gets all upset and angry so it's like shit. I wish Chastity could tell her because for whatever reason Vanity never gets mad at Chastity and anything she says never seems to make her mad. I actually might talk to Chastity and have her to talk to Vanity about that. Either way, I'm trying to remain positive but my doubts are weighing heavy.