The Gorgeous Nerd

Chapter 26. Every damned time!

He tries to let out a small laugh to contain his nervousness. "What are you thinking?" He asks softly.

I am just awkwardly beaming at the words replaying in my head.

"Do you realise what you've just said?"

He closes his eyes for a brief moment and then stares into mine.

"I said it and I am saying it again just in case you didn't get it the first time."

I am still speechless. Awestruck. Wonder struck. And what not kind of struck!

His lips draw into a beautiful curve of a smile. "Yeah, I am in love with you, Andria. I am very much in love with you and… " My breath is held back. I nod just so he can still go on.

"This might as well sound insane and stupid and unreasonable and you might want to run away from me but I have realised that it's nothing what I ever felt before for any girl. You are beautiful, you are sharp and you drive me crazy. I don't know what this is. I don't know what love is but every damn time I see you, I just need you to be mine. Just mine and nobody's.'' He is panting.

"Nick.."

I gasp as I hear the sincerity in his words. He looks beautifully innocent admitting his feelings to me while his eyes give away his fear of my reaction.

"Whenever I see you, I just want to be a part of a different world. That is your world. I want to see you without you knowing. I want to draw you close to me everytime you try to resist and run away. It sucks to not be around you anymore. How long have you been here for, huh? A few days? And you have clouded my thoughts. It's infuriating. The fact that I am not able to get you out of my head infuriates me. I keep finding myself lose it to you every damn time I try to make you to give in. But above all, I can't be like that with you. I just don't want to spoil how innocently beautiful you are. I care too much and I want you to be fine! I want things to be fine between us. I…." He pauses briefly and then - "I just want you to be mine!"

"Stop. Please stop." I say reflexively as I feel tears hitting the corners of my eyes. But I control them from falling just yet.

He shuts his eyes again for a brief moment to get it together.

"I am sorry. I said far too much. You can go if you want to." He is too scared of my reaction.

I go towards him and caress his cheeks.

"No I don't want to go."

"Andria.."

"I am as scared as you are and I don't wish to leave."

"What do you feel?" His soft voice stirs so much inside me.

"Whatever you said, all that you admitted, it's not unreasonable. It's not unreasonable to me at all." I      look into his ocean deep eyes - "And I won't run away this time. I don't want to."  I softly speak assuringly.

"Your voice, the way you speak, it spins a lot in my head and I want to kiss you right now." He draws in.

My heart will stop if he doesn't stop looking at ne like that. And his words. They are not just words. They are piercing through my sanity. I might as well explode and faint right in his arms.

I need to say something, right now. I don't want this to be in a spur of moment thing.

"Nick, there is something I..." I begin to frame a sensible sentence when he is just about to kiss me.

"Andrianna! There you are!" a voice breaks through the corridor.

I jump in surprise as I move away from him maintaining a good distance.