Don't Forget Me

{chapter 13: empty}

{Hazel ^^}

{Skylar's POV}

What just happened.

I feel like I can't breathe, what is going on? That is not like Hayes at all. Something must have happened for him to react like that. I know this is hard, but I can't miss my first day of junior year. I'm sitting in the bathroom and letting it all out still. I think maybe sometime I'll stop crying. School starts in 10 minutes now, and I need to get a hold of myself. If he says he doesn't need me, then I don't need him.

I stood up and opened the bathroom stall and stood in front of the mirror. I looked like a mess. I wasn't gonna show Hayes that he hurt me. I wasn't gonna suddenly become so vulnerable. I unzipped my bag and took out some emergency makeup I always keep with me and fixed up my face.

I lifted my chin up and walked taller. I wanted to feel strong and that's what I would do. I grabbed my bag and walked out of the restroom, ready to face this crazy world I live in.

{Hayes POV}

Saying goodbyes don't seem that hard until you actually have to do it. It's only two syllables. The first syllable is the good, the content, the happiness. And the second syllable hits and it's the heartache, the misery, the pain. Goodbyes are a contradiction.

I walked into my first period class late because I got lost, and when I walked in the teacher greeted me and I found my seat. A girl sitting in front of me turned around and asked, "Aren't you Skylar's boyfriend?"

I just smiled.

Have you ever been so close to crying that you just smiling to stop the tears from coming? I just shook my head to her and she said, "Well don't you at least know her?" And all I could say was "No." and keep thinking, whatever it takes.

And with that, she nodded and turned around. I kept smiling because I knew that if I stopped, I would cry. I struggled through that class, but kept holding on. I went on like this up until lunch. I haven't made any friends, I'm pretty sure no one wants to talk to this new kid who looks high cause his eyes are so red. Once the lunch bell rang, I went out to my jeep, reclined the driver seat, and just slept.

{Skylar's POV}

I have finally reached lunch time and I think I'm still a person, I'm not totally sure though. My backpack already feels like it's full of boulders, which is not a good sign. I'm honestly just so tired. I decided to skip lunch and take a nap in my car.

I walked out to my car and saw Hayes parked a couple spots away. I ignored his stupid gray jeep and got into my car and reclined my seat. I set an alarm for 10 minutes before class. I soon fell sound asleep.

When I woke up, I woke up to the music blasting on my phone, with a notification that said, "Time for school!" I had snoozed it and only had three minutes to get to class. I got up quickly and turned off my car. I picked up my backpack from the ground and got out of my car.

As I ran towards campus, my eyes lingered towards Hayes' jeep and saw him still sleeping in his driver seat. A part of me knew the right thing to do, but the anger bottled up inside and something kept me from waking him up. I kept walking and eventually reached my class. I walked in just as the bell rang and sat in my seat.

The teacher started talking but I couldn't pay attention to anything she said. About 10 minutes into class, someone walked into the room. I locked eyes with him and then looked away, because the sting of his bright blue eyes was too much.

"Sorry I'm late, I'm new here and I got really lost." He told the teacher. I just rolled my eyes. The only spot left was the seat right next to mine. "Hayes Grier, right?" The teacher asked. He nodded his head. "I'll have you sit in that empty seat next to Skylar." She said. Are you kidding me. This day could not get any worse.

He sat down without a word. The awkwardness is so real right now. We went on in silence for the rest of the class. And for the rest of the day. This silence went on for the first two weeks of school. He came late to our class after lunch every day. And I didn't have the heart to wake him up ever.

Some words may sting, but silence is what really breaks the heart.

{Hayes POV}

2 weeks. I haven't spoken to her in two weeks. I can barely even glance at her. I have made friends, I joined the football team. I almost live the life of a normal teenage boy. Girls hit on me, but I can't even bring myself to talk to any of them, because no one is as good as her. My world is centered around her. Every time I see her I have to resist the urge to tell her she looks beautiful, even if she does look beautiful every day.

Even on her 'lazy days' her smile still cheers me up. I haven't said a single 'hello' and it's growing more and more painful. I kind of want to ask her if we can talk, but Nate is on mine and her every move.

I just wish things weren't so complicated.

How can you go from speaking to someone too much to never speaking to them at all? I keep thinking about Nate and what he would do if I was ever with her. I thought about the possibility of speaking to her, but then I realized there's no way I couldn't even bring myself to talk to her. I couldn't tell her. Maybe this is the best for both of us, this temptation of talking to each other is too much though.

I can't go on like this but I know I have to. My first home football game is tonight, I'm super excited because Coach is gonna let me play starting quarterback tonight and if I do we'll, that will be my title. It's 7:00 am and I am super tired from studying last night for my Trigonometry test. I drove to Safeway to buy myself a Red Bull to get me through the day. When I was checking out my stuff, my cashier was this gorgeous girl with pretty hazel eyes.

Her name, coincidentally, was Hazel. We made slight conversation and I found out that she goes to my school and is also a junior. I invited her to watch my game tonight, turns out she was already planning on it. I was excited, this is the first step to moving on, which I should've done a long time ago.

{Hiiii! I'm so sorry I haven't updated! I'm gonna try and update more regularly. I had some serious writers block, I wrote this chapter like 3 times lol. Hope y'all have a good day! Love, Aline ❤️}