Paper thin // Joe Sugg au

*12*

I could wear long sleeves as it was autumn so I could get away with it. For a while.

I couldn't help but ask myself why I did it. Why would I get myself into this?

My skin itched like a scab, wanting more of the excruciating pleasure. I knew I shouldn't do it, I didn't want to. I felt bad enough for not telling Joe and just doing it more would mean immense guilt. I couldn't handle more guilt. So i texted Alfie.

Milly- Hey, am i able to pop round later? With all this Zoe stuff I just think it'd be nice to talk.

Alfie- yeah, sure! 12?

Milly- see you then
I was left with 30 minutes. I quickly texted Joe asking him how he was and to ask if we could see each other later on in the afternoon and then i was off.

What was i supposed to do? It was going to be extremely awkward, talking about my bestfriend, his girlfriend and how she almost got killed. He doesn't even know why she ran out, how she was too distracted to hear the car, too distracted to notice she was on a road. Was i going to tell him? Of course not! Not purposely, at least.

Trigger warning

The house was scruffy. Curtains were half closed and the shadow was cold, towering over the shivering trees. The whole aura was melancholic.

I knocked on the door, chilly gusts of wind blowing against m face. I rung the doorbell (figuring that Alfie hadn't heard me knock).

Locks were shifted and the door slowly opened. Alfie grunted and poked his head out.

"Oh," He began. "It's you"

I nodded unsurely. He an attitude that wasn't like him at all. Not like the Alfie I knew.

"How are you doing? Any news about how Zoe is doing?" I smiled as I sat down on a sofa. It was covered in pizza boxes and tissues like the rest of the room.

" Spare the whole 'Is Zoe okay?' and 'Oh, have you heard anything about her? I miss her' sh.it. I know you know she's doing badly and  I know who did this to her," Alfie boomed.

"Alfie, I don't know what you mean. No one did this to her!"

"You sure? Coincidence that she was round yours and happened to leave crying, isn't it?"

"We had a small argument! It wasn't even an argument, she got upset. If only you knew, Alfie! She stopped in the road to talk to me, I warned her but she didn't move" Tears threatened to pour from my eyes but I held them in.

Alfie stared at me, anger flashing over his eyes.

"You did this, Milly," He paused for a second, contemplating his next few words. "And you're going to pay".

A/n~ Wheyyy this is short but it's also an update. They're going to have to be round about this short now because of school, homework and other things :( Hope it's enjoyable though :) (P.S- sorry for any spelling mistakes).