Paper thin // Joe Sugg au

*16*

Milly: If you can't be quiet then we shall text

Joe: Are you being serious?

Joe: We're in the same room

Milly: Zoe wouldn't be as difficult as you're being

Joe: I'm not Zoe though?

Milly: I'm sorry

Milly: I just really miss her. It's weird not having your best friend there for Christmas

Joe: You're not the only one

Milly: Well, now I feel selfish

Joe: Selfish? You're selfish. I was just saying that I miss her too. I wish she was here, I wouldn't feel as guilty either

Milly: You're not the only one with that feeling. I chased her on to the road

Joe: Not really

Milly: Pretty much! I could have called, texted or just left her but I had to chase her

Joe: That's why you're her best friend. You didn't want to leave it because you were afraid of an argument, don't you see that you were trying to save the friendship?

Milly: That's not how I see it at all

Joe: Are you alright?

*snap opened 2 minutes ago*

Joe: Milly? Please talk

"I was there, I knew it was coming. I could have saved her" I sobbed.

"But you didn't" Joe whispered. I heard him shuffle about on the other side of the room and, through the darkness, saw him move about. Soon, he appeared in front of the sofa I was on. "because you were scared that if you didn't get her in time you'd both be hit, you were scared of risking your life. You tried to warn her but it was too late to do anything. Milly, you would have saved her but you couldn't. You would of, that's all that matters. Doctors say she'll be fine. Don't feel guilty for something you didn't cause"

"You didn't cause it either, you know. There was no knowing that she was going to get hit, that she'd run out onto the road and not realise she wasn't on the path. You didn't do anything, Joe. You were looking out for her like a brother should. Not even her 'best friend' realised she was acting weird. Her best friend who's supposed to know her inside and out, who's supposed to notice mood changes, who's supposed to be there 24/7, couldn't even realise that she was upset and anxious. How shi.t of me is that?" I let out a mocking sigh as more tears rolled down my cheeks. Joe placed himself next to me, wrapped his arms around my shoulders and pulled me into him. I rested my head on his shoulder as he spoke.

"You sound like a psychic who just lost her job, you don't need to know everything. You can't read the future and i'm 99% sure you're not Zoe's therapist. You may talk a lot and you may have known each other for so long and you may talk about how you feel all the time but there is always going to be secrets. There is always going to things that aren't clear, that you can't see with one glance. There is always going to be things that aren't noticeable to you but noticeable to others. Don't feel guilty because you couldn't see one thing because you saw everything else. You make Zoe happy, Milly. You were the best thing that happened to her"

I looked up at Joe. He was staring across the room, into the black abyss. His eyes sparkled with sadness and something else. His mouth was moulded into a half frown. His cheeks were rosy and his jawline was sharp.

"Thank you" I murmured, drifting into a sleep.

"I'm always here for you" He replied, pulling me closer. I thought I heard him say something else but I was already asleep.