Paper thin // Joe Sugg au

*17*

I woke up to something wriggling beneath me. I sat up, rubbing my eyes with my hand. The room was dark with only the slight light coming from the moonlight through a crack in the curtains.

"Joe?" I croaked. Having just woken up, my voice was hoarse and I needed water.

"Mhm. Did I wake you up? Sorry" I let out a little laugh.

"It's fine. I fell asleep on you?" I went to position myself so i wasn't lying on him but he spke up.

"You can stay like that, it's okay. But yeah, you fell asleep. We were talking about Zoe and you were crying... the crying probably made you more tired... I... I couldn't sleep, I was just thinking about everything" Joe sighed, wiping a hand down his face. I sat up to look at him.

"Everything?" I asked.

"Zoe, family, life. Just everything that's going on"

"Are you okay? Like, I know you're not okay but there's an obvious reason but are you okay with everything else?" He seemed to be far away. He had a dazed look in his eyes. His sadness was split between different subjects and since the accident none of 'the boys' had seen him as much; they wanted to give him space and time to heal.

"I'm fine. I just" He sighed again and shook his head.

"Don't worry, you don't have to explain. Alfie isn't doing good at all" I said, hoping Joe would realise he's not the only one and that he can talk to someone.

"How bad is he? Have you seen him?" Joe responded quickly, an edge to his voice.

"He's quite bad. I saw him a day or two ago. He was acting very strange. He's, like, lost his mind. He was saying that I was going to pay for what i'd done. I felt bad, he's obviously taken everything. I don't blame him, I would be like that but I have you and Nikki. I think he's pushed everyone away, even poppy and his parents" I shook my head. I did feel bad, Alfie did love Zoe. He was always caring for her, protective of her and he would never let anything happen to her. He just took everything to heart and it was affecting him more than everyone else.

"Milly, he needs help. Soon." Joe seemed worried, a hidden fear amongst his thoughts.

"Is he alright?" I was scared. Was Alfie alright? Was he in danger of himself? Or was someone in danger of him?

"This happened before, a while back. Something..." , Joe stopped and looked down, "Something happened and he lost control of his feelings. Last time, well, he hurt a lot of people. He had this sort of emotional break down, went crazy. He just got worse and worse. The doctors said that if we'd have left him for any longer then... then he'd... he'd have hurt someone or himself. He's at risk"

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A/n

Not sure what this is and it is quite bad. I apologise for that. I'm starting to write in advance so that i can just upload when i'm too busy to write anything. My parts are small and idk if i should make them longer??  Thank you soooo much for 500 reads like why y'all reading this nonsense??? I'm so happy though, thank you so so much!

Btw sorry for any spelling mistakes, i'm very bad with noticing mistakes and so when I actually proof read it  (most of the time) doesn't make a difference. Cri.