lily's pov.
My hands felt numb, I was trying to bring myself to knock on the door but my body wouldn't let me.
I was just stood there, on her doorstep.
My heart was pounding in my chest I could practically hear it, I was so fucking scared. I wanted to see her, I really did. But the countless dreams I've had of her shutting the door in my face came back to my head in an attempt to scare me away.
But no matter how much I wanted to run away, I wasn't going to let myself let her go. Not again. I've been waiting for this day since the beginning, and now it's here I want more time. I want more time to get my head sorted, think about what I'm going to say, how I'm going to apologise for everything. Yes, I tried to visit her but they would never let me in without an adult.
What if she thinks I've moved on? Forgot about her? What if she has moved on? I didn't even think about that possibility. Maybe she's done with a stupid student and has met someone else, someone who can love her and not have to hide it. Maybe I've made a huge mistake coming here, and I should just let her live her life. All I do is cause trouble anyway, she's probably better off with somebody else.
But I needed to tell her that I still loved her, and that I haven't been able to stop thinking about her, or what happened between us. Even though we never labelled what we were, I knew that I had strong feelings for her. Feelings I've never felt before.
I was so deep into thought I actually forgot what I was here to do. I let out a sigh of defeat, shaking off all my negative thoughts. I bit my lip in fear, it took all the courage inside me to bring my hand up to the door, slowly knocking on it twice. Shit. There was no turning back now. My head fucking hurt, my legs felt like jelly. I wanted to just disappear.
Then I heard the door lock click, followed by it opening swiftly.
And there she was.
My eyes met hers straight away, she had no makeup on, but she looked beautiful. There was something different about her... Her hair—it was now just above her shoulders, still blonde. But shorter and straight. Her lips parted, obviously in too much shock to say anything.
sarah's pov
I was carefully wrapping up the picture frames, ready to be packed. After everything that happened, I couldn't stay in this town anymore. I got an apartment in New York and I was ready to move away and start over. I hadn't heard anything from Lily since the night I was arrested, and it broke my heart. I knew there must've been a reason for her not contacting me, maybe it was her Father. Or maybe she just didn't want to be involved with me anymore..
I was sealing up a box when I heard the door knock, and I remember wondering who the hell it could be. I walked out into the hallway from the living room and to the door, unlocking it and opening it.
Then to my surprise I saw her, I saw Lily. Standing at my doorstep.
I watched her look at me, I was lost for words.
I opened my mouth, trying to think of something to say. It took me some time but I finally managed to whisper out, "Lily.."
She looked at the floor before back at me. "I-I needed to see you." She spoke, her voice breaking.
I don't know why, but I just had the urge to pull her in for a hug. I held her, my arms wrapped around her neck and my chin rested on her shoulder. I felt her arms snake around my waist, then I heard her sniffle—she was crying.
I closed my eyes for a minute, trying to figure out how this could happen and what brought her here. And why was she upset?
"I've missed you so much, Sarah." I heard her whisper. We shouldn't really be doing this in public, but I had just missed her so much and it felt relieving to see her again.
"I missed you too." I mumbled against her layers of clothes. Oh god, it felt so amazing to see her again. I love her so- wait. Did I just say that?
I really do.
I love her.
I pulled out of the hug, I had this weird sensation in me and a sense of reality hit me. Was I still going to move away? Did I want to leave her behind?
"I need to talk to you." She looked at me, her face red and puffy and a smile on her lips.
"O-okay." I awkwardly stepped back, giving her space to walk through the doorway.
I gently closed the door behind me, watching as Lily walked down the hall. She stopped in her tracks, looking around before her eyes met mine again.
"Are you leaving?" She spoke, I could hear the hurt in her voice.
"Well, yeah." My gaze met the floor after those words left my mouth, I felt so guilty.
Lily started to walk towards me slowly, causing me to make eye contact with her again. My mouth opened, but no words were coming out, and she kept on walking. Her body got closer to mine until she stopped as our faces were inches apart.
"I love you, Sarah." The vibrations of her voice tickled my lips, her hot breath was too much and I was getting more and more nervous. I felt my heart jump out of my chest, I could practically hear it beating. Lily closed the gap between us and our lips met in a sensual kiss, causing me to let out a hum of relief. I closed my eyes, savoring every moment.
I brought my hands up to Lily's neck, pulling her face closer to mine before she could break the kiss. Our lips moved perfectly together, and it made me realise I am indeed in love with this girl.
As I broke the kiss gently, she rested her forehead against mine. Her breaths became hotter ad she traced my lip with her thumb. "Don't leave."
"Come with me." My voice was soft, and I meant it.
A grin crept up on her face as she kissed me again, whispering the word 'okay' into my mouth.
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A/N: SO HERE IT IS, THE ENDING. Ngl, I got really stuck with this story and I stupidly went off my storyline and it sorta went downhill so I apologise this is really crappy. But thank you to everyone to voted/commented on this fic, you guys are the best and I hope you enjoyed it!!!
Lots of love - abs xx
