Our life is full of what if's. What if we do this or didn't do this. What if we say this or didn't say this. Our life is a never ending cycle of questions. Our decision affect us everyday even if you think it's the bad ones and hurt the people around you. I've been two hours trying to explain how i feel and why this. But i can't seem to wrap my head around this. Let me just say 6 years ago today around this time i saw the last of my cousin. I can't explain how i feel right now like it didn't seem to be that long. It feels like just yesterday he was with me. But six years i just can't describe to you the pain i felt. The pain i feel when i look back six years ago that i could have stopped him. Stopped him from doing the thing he did. I could have stopped him but i didn't i was only ten around that time when i heard a gun shot October 11, 2010 12:47 a.m. That was the moment i lost him forever. And a week after that i went into depression and started cutting then put into a rehab facility. I was that girl at ten years old. I was the girl that was happy that week because i finally turned to double digits and finally got that doll i've been asking for. Thinking that my cousin will see me graduate in 8 years and see me get married to an amazing person. I was that girl that thought that night what if i stopped him what if i called the police earlier what if i knew he had the gun and what if when he said goodbye to me with tears in his eyes would be the last. My life is full of what if's and most of those decisions i made back then make me who i am today. Just think about it just say what if.
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My Life, My Story 2
Non-FictionThis is a story about girl who is confused and conflicted with what life has to give her. With tension and her trying to figure if she should tell the truth about her life.
