My Life, My Story 2

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i can't stop crying. i just keep thinking about all those memories we had. all the laughter we shared and the secrets we told. where did it all go. why did we all of a sudden lose hope. where did the time go. we had a future planned out. we were supposed to be happy for once. have the time of our life's together. but in a blink of an eye it was gone. the love was there but i wasn't or the other way around. we relied upon each other's strength to move. you came like oxygen and now you left me breathless. the smile you put on my face was everything. the times you pushed my hair behind my ear lifting my chin up making me look at you. which is making my whole world stop and thinking we are the only two people on the earth. slowly but softly lips touching lips making me feel some type of way. the time you snuck in my room and we just talked for hours on the bed while wrapping our bodies together. me going to your house and pretend being so pissed so you can make your pointless jokes. holding my hand in public to kissing me just to make others jealous like you always did so they "knew" i was owned by you. to me taking your phone and running off with it and you chasing me and tickling me until i couldn't breathe. to breaking down my door everytime i had a temptation to quit or even when i lost people close to me due to many tragedies. then drinking at places not giving a damn in the world. to crying that one time you consumed so much we were in a reck. when i was at the point of crossing the line with you and the urge of smashing lips was the only option you thought was better than fixing it. it made me go mad when you teased me when you rubbed your hands on me and do those light kisses. you gave me everything and when i say everything i mean EVERYTHING. we had love but it didn't last. please say something if you read this i can't live life knowing you hate me. even if you don't wanna talk to me anymore after how we ended things with each other just tell me you at least read it. we started this relationship right but ended it in a hot mess not knowing all the answers. not knowing the whole story just piece we became to upset and disappointed in each other that we haven't figured it out just yet. all we both know is we don't have hope anymore. it's sad to see it go because we had everyone jealous of our relationship giving me so much happiness knowing that you were once mine and so much sadness that you aren't. so this is it Jonathan S. it's over... i have loved you