AWAKE - kim seok jin

Chapter 23: I love you.

THAT NIGHT : 12AM

"Sorry for getting mad at you." Jin looked at me. "But I didn't regret it, though." he smirked.

"It's okay." I said and took the remote on the table, leaning my head on his broad shoulder. I was watching the TV when he suddenly got up and took out the rings from the shopping bag.

"We're going to wear them now?" I squealed.

We sat on the floor beside the window and I waited excitedly for him to open them.

He grinned cheekily and took out the rings out from their boxes. He let me wear the pizza one and he wore the chicken one. They looked cute on us.

"Shouldn't we take a picture?" I suggested. I took out my instax camera and we posed together while showing our pretty fingers.

The polaroid came out and Jin obviously looked prettier than me. Well, he's prettier than all the other girls I've met.

He kissed the side of my forehead and it took me off guard—my heart beating fast as he looked into my eyes with pure love.

The moon illuminated his eyes, and god; he looked angelic.

"Chicken?" he said.

"Pizza."

We laughed and he kissed me, and we just ended up staring at the moon.

"Do you remember the promise that we made when we started dating 5 months ago?"

"Which?"

"The one when I said not to leave me no matter what." he chuckled silently. "I was just scared, you know."

"Why were you?"

"I just.. I don't know if I should tell you or not." he looked at me. "But I know really well at that time, that I really didn't want to lose you even though we might be apart one day."

"It's okay, you can take your time. I'm not going to force you to say it."

He nodded and we went back to silence. Not in the awkward way, but more of a peaceful kind of silence.

"Where is Seojun by the way?" he asked. My heart ached a little when I heard his name.

"I don't know too." I forced a smile. "Actually, I have something to tell you."

"What is it?"

"I have these weird dreams, and it's just.. haunting me." I closed my eyes. "Like any other dreams, I thought I would forget them the moment I woke up but I would just end up remembering more of them."

Jin wrapped his arms around me and hugged me by his side.

"I would see.. unexplainable things and weird things would happen. I don't understand." I cried. "Often, I would also hear voices in my head and everytime I hear them, I would get headaches. I thought I was crazy but the voices sounded so vivid and clear. It's scary."

"The voices would say something weird. They say that they miss me or some sort. It was weird. What if those were the voices from hell?" I stated.

Jin laughed. "You got me, until the last sentence. How can you come from hell when you look like the most beautiful angel I've ever seen?"

"Perhaps I'm a fallen angel." I batted my eyelashes at him and he pinched my nose.

"No, I'm serious. I'm scared. Seojun suddenly disappeared, too.."

"Was he in your dreams?"

"He was always in my dreams." I looked up to Jin and I couldn't read his expressions. Why did he seem so relaxed about it?

"He was in every of my dreams. He would say ridiculous things to me. The things that he said unknowingly made my heart ache in a way."

"Areum.." Jin looked to me. "Just know this. If someday we're fated to part ways, know that my feelings will never change for you. Even in another life."

I nodded and suddenly started to cry. I felt emotional and he patted my back and comforted me. I was scared of losing him, what would I ever be without him?

I finally wanted to say it to him. I never said it, but now I want to.

"Jin," I called out. He looked at my face in adoration. "Hm?"

"I love you."

He laughed, but eventually his expressions became sadder and he started to cry. I didn't know why he cried, maybe he knew something. I hugged him, and he hugged me tighter. He was sobbing and it hurt to see him like that. He mumbled something, his face filled with regrets.

We broke the hug and he looked at me teary eyed.

My head felt sudden heavy pressure but I held it in. It was pricking. It was heavy. It was such an excruciating pain that I felt like my head could explode. It wasn't like any other headaches I experienced before.

"Areum," he sadly looked at me, sniffing. "Why did you say that.." he stopped and looked at me in fear. "Areum?"

"Areum? Areum?!" he screamed.

"What is happening, Jin?" I replied in a hurried tone. My head was spinning like crazy.

"W-why are you.." he stuttered, pointing his index finger at me. "...disappearing? A-are you going to leave me?!"

'Fool, why did you say it?' a voice echoed in my head.

'If you really wanted to stay, why did you say those words?'

I looked at my hands and they were changing transparent.

'Rule One: Never say I love you or be gone.'

"Areum!" he cried like he's never been before. He looked traumatised— seeing me about to disappear like dust.

"Jin..." I reached my hands out to him but I felt.. gone.

"Areum.. I love you, too."

I shut my eyes, as a tear rolled down my cheeks. I love you too. I love you, too.

With that, my whole world just shut off completely, and all that happened after was black.

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