"Murderer"

Hes Gone

*Rena's POV*

It's been three months since the incident happened at the party, and every day I feel the guilt of not apologizing to Ashton build up more and more. It's official that Gerard and I are dating, but I only said yes because I wanted him. I didn't need him like I needed Ashton.

Gerard actually confessed to me that he didn't feel right about doing this, and I agreed. Today we were going to break up, and I was going to see Ashton and apologize to him. We were still going to be friends, so it's not a big deal.

Gladly my baby bump hasn't shown yet, but I still told Gerard that I was pregnant. He was slightly mad at me for not telling him before, but he was fine after an hour. I have been throwing up a bit, so that kind of gave it away as well.

I was now in my room packing up to leave, and Gerard was helping me. Once I had everything in my suitcase, I zipped it up as Gerard packed up Venus for me. Once I knew I had everything, Gerard carried my stuff downstairs for me.

We walked outside, and he closed and locked the door behind us. He placed all of my things in the trunk except for the small purse Venus was in. We both got into the car, and he started it up and drove off.

I let out a long breath and held his free hand. I saw him smile slightly as he rubbed the surface of my hand with his thumb. "I'm gonna miss you..." He mumbled.

"I'm gonna miss you too, but we can always visit each other." I mumbled back. "If Ashton says we can..." He murmured with slight anger in his voice. I looked down and sighed while squeezing his hand. "Right..." I murmured.

*45 minutes later*

I automatically jumped out of the car and ran up to my house. I rang the doorbell multiple times along with knocking on the door. The door finally opened revealing Arena.

"RENA!!!" She shouted as she embraced me in her arms. "I missed you." I said. "I missed you too." She smiled as we both pulled away.

"Where's-" All of my sisters then ran downstairs and pulled me into a tight group hug. I chuckled and wrapped my arms around all of them. "I missed you guys too..." I said wile laughing.

"But where's Ashton?" I asked as I pulled away. All of their smiles faded, and they all looked at each other like something was up. "Wh-What happened to Ashton?" I asked.

"Um, Ashton... He-uh, he flew to America with his mum, Harry and Lauren. It was mainly for a job that his mum had to do but overall he was eager to leave." Arena said while looking down. Tears built up in my eyes, and I heard Gerard's footsteps stop behind me.

"H-How long has he been gone?" I whimpered. "T-Two months..." Arena stuttered. I filled up with anger when those words slipped out of her mouth.

"Two months? TWO MONTHS?!" I yelled as tears streamed down my face. "I COULD'VE FIXED THINGS BEFORE HE F*CKING LEFT ARENA!!! NOW HE PROBABLY THINKS THAT I DON'T CARE ANYMORE!!" I cried as I just broke down and fell on my knees.

Gerard bent down by my side and pulled me close to his chest. "I-I thought you didn't care anymore... That's why I didn't tell you." She said as she started crying. "You have nothing to cry about, you didn't lose anyone special." I snapped as I stood up and ran upstairs.

I ran into my room and slammed the door shut behind me. I slowly made my way into the bathroom and sat down on the lid of the toilet. My heart felt darker and darker as my thoughts took over.

TRIGGER WARNING***************

I dug through my drawers and found the blade I haven't used in a year and a half. I held my wrist over the sink and slowly yet deeply cut myself roughly. I let out a small scream, but I quickly shut myself up so the others wouldn't hear me.

Sadly, they did because I heard they're footsteps coming up the stairs. I threw the blade in the back of the drawer and grabbed a wet cloth. I placed it against my scarred skin rougher than intended, causing me to let out a small cry.

I heard my front door swing open, and soon my bathroom door did the same. I heard them all gasp at the sight of blood dripping on the floor. I slowly turned around, and I saw that Gerard was like, PALE.

"L-Listen I'm-" I was cut off by a sharp pain in my wrist, causing me to let out a small whimper. Arena picked me up bridal style and placed me down on my bed. She stormed into my bathroom and pretty much threw the first AID kit at Mia.

Gladly she was aware of her actions so she caught it before it hit her. She and Arena quickly rushed over to me, and they sat down on both sides of me. Gerard and the girls sat down on the floor in front of me.

Arena started cleaning my wrist, and just by looking at her she was mad about what I just did. The other girls were mad, but she seemed to be the maddest one out of all of them. She then wrapped my wrist up with a bandage, and then she got Mia to put everything back up.

Arena pulled me into a tight hug, and Gerard sat down in Mia's original spot. He held my free hand and kissed my cheek. "Don't do that again..." He mumbled as a tear slipped down his cheek. "Ok..." I lied.

A/N That's it for this chapter!!! If you liked it, PLEASE leave a VOTE and a COMMENT down below. I know it's been sad a little bit, but it'll get better I promise.

STAY TUNED MY LITTLE EMOS<3ilysm