Royals (Rydellington AU)

Lost without you

~Queen Rydel~

Since Ellington left,I have a new routine.I wake up,I do my queen duties,I piss Riker off for news,I pretend to eat something,I avoid my mother,I go to bed and cry myself to sleep.I never thought I'd go through this.

I never felt like this when my brothers had to serve.I was obviously worried but I'm not worried like I am now.I have this feeling I know something bad will happen.Either with Ellington or Ross.I have nightmares and it sucks not knowing what's going on.

And it is really hard going on with my life when I feel sick all the time.Mom says its normal.She says she felt that the first time father went to war.I feel sick again every time someone reminds me that when he does come back,he can go back.

'You didn't sleep again.' Mom affirms as I sit down in the breakfast table.I serve myself some coffee.Something to keep me up so I can face the day.

'It's hard sleeping when I know my husband is in danger.' I look at her and she gives me the look.

'It'll definitely be hard to move on with your life...You're a Queen...' Mom starts.

'Mother,the queen is going amazing...But the wife has more than reason to be worried.' She knows I'm serious.

'The queen and the wife are the same person.' Mom argues.

'Mother,I would have never sent my husband to war...I sent the soldier to war.' I stare at everybody in the table.They know I'm in my limit.

'Rydel...' Riker starts but I get up and make a sign for to stop.

'If you excuse me,I have to go...I am meeting the former primer minister.' I see my brother's worried expression.

'He's our primer minister.' Riker points out and I smile.

'No longer after last meeting we had.' I explain as I excuse myself but everybody follows me.

'You fired our primer minister?' Riker seems nervous.

'He kind quit.' I smile back at him as I walk down the hall.

'Rydel,who are you going to put in his place? We are at war!' Riker basically shouts.When I'm about to turn the hall,I feel dizzy.I support myself in the wall.

'Rydel.' I see Rocky standing in front of me but I see all blur.Next thing,I realize I'm on the ground.

When I wake up,I take a moment to realize things.I am in my room.I try sitting down but I feel dizzy again.What the heck,man? I've never felt like this before.

'Queen,rest.' I see a doctor.She smiles at me and takes my arm for measuring my arterial pressure.

'What do I have?' I ask her trying to recompose myself.

'Ohh,queen...You made the people very happy.' She smiles at me as she exams me.

'Doctor,how could a disease make my people happy?' I look at her worried.She smiles and takes a deep breath.

'I'm very sorry the Prince consort had to go to war...but he left you with a very beautiful present.' She explains to me.I take a minute to realize what she's talking about.She looks down at my belly and I raise my eyebrows.

'Am I pregnant?' I ask the obvious and she nods.

'Yes,queen.Very much pregnant of three weeks.' She tells me.I can a moment to think through things here.

This baby came in a very conflicted time.His or her dad is at war,but this baby is the symbol that the alliance is solid.If Ellington dies on the battle field,I have something or better someone to hold on to claim the kingdom of Abemia.If Ellington dies,I'll become queen of Dandelli and Abemia once King George is dead.