Royals (Rydellington AU)

Benjamin

~Queen Rydel~

It feels like months but in reality it's been only a month.I haven't heard from Ellington in a while and it's actually starting to worry me.But we have good news on how the battles are developing well.We have won most of the battles which is good but every time Rocky gives me a report to read,I feel bad from all the reports coming from Generals.

They report deaths,battles,attacks,defenses.I gave orders for our soldiers to win this but it never crossed my mind,until those reports came,we were killing people in the process.How cruel a war is.If I don't send my soldiers,civilians whom I swore to protect will die and if I do send the soldiers,I'll be giving orders to kill people.

Wars are the cruelest thing in the world and yet,we live with them like its the most normal thing.

I keep imagining those wives like me sending their husbands to war.Many those with children to raise with no financial support nor protection.I mean,Ellington went to war but he left me in a castle guarded by a ton of people.A place where I have food,supplies and a comfy bed to sleep at night.Many wives don't and yet,they fight.Fight to get things better so their kids won't starve and they won't starve.

I've been complaining on how miserable I've been without Ellington but it is such a small thing compared to others.I obviously have all the rights to my pain but maybe I should use my powers and influence to help others,like me who's husband is protecting our kingdom and guarding our future.

'So,did you gather?' I ask Rocky in our meeting.He has been the most helpful.

'Yes,but I asked partners of soldiers to come.' He says.It is like he's being cautious with what he says.

'What?' I ask and he takes a deep breath.

'Many soldiers are gay and some soldiers now are women...so,there'll be men and women.' He tries explaining like I'm dumb.

'Rocky,I have no issue with what people of my kingdom have as their sexual option...Having someone you love in a battlefield is a feeling I can't even begin to explain...Those people love each other.' I explain and he nods organizing the papers.

'I know some old people don't agree with me in that matter...specially from counselors of my father.' I continue.

'It is true.Some counselors didn't even like your idea of bringing those people into the castle.' Rocky tells me.I smile at him and just pick my pen signing some papers.

'Something tells you could care less.' Rocky giggles as we keep going over the papers.

'I'm the ruler.I'm the Queen.My rules.' I make dramatic pauses.He only nods.It is good having someone who will support you no matter what and most importantly: don't question my decisions.

'I'll talk over with Katherine again the details.' He says as he gets up.

'Talk over? Is that what the kids are using those days?' I joke and he laughs.

'We will talk about the Partners in War event.' He affirms.I like the name he chose for this.I want to help people despite their sexual options.It's their options and I can only respect it.

Love is love.

I know how it feels to have your loved one away.Once Ellington returns,because he will return,he will be kept guarded in the castle.Locked in a towel!

The day of our event arrives and my biggest problem,as dumb as it sounds,is because my dress is way too tight and is showing my belly.No one can even notice I'm pregnant.Ellington can't even know about the fake sickness I had.Nothing can worry him.The littlest thing can worry and in a war that means death.