Vampire academy - blood spell

Prologue

The nightmares all start the same. It starts with her staring and smiling at me. All I see is her. The words keep repeating in my head; "you will lose what you value most". I move forward but every step I take she gets further away. And then the scene changes and we are back at the caves. She screams and screams as the strigoi take her away and all I keep thinking is the words I said to her in the cabin; "I love you Roza. I'll always be here for you and I'll never let anything happen to you". But the screams keep going and I run into the cave till the screams stop. "Rose! Roza!". I come to a halt when I see the bloody and lifeless body of the girl who took my heart. "It's all your fault!" Is what keeps yelling in my head. "You should have protected her". And then that is when I wake. My breathing is heavy and when I rub my eyes I wipe away the tears I didn't even know that was there. I take a deep breath and check the time. It's sunrise and time to get up. Ever since the strigoi attack on the academy almost a week ago, we've switched to a human schedule. Today is the day of the memorial where we acknowledge all the people who died in the fight. I blink trying to fight back tears as I remember Roza. The Roza I should have protected that day. I stand up and sit at the small table that hold the vodka and a glass and continue to drink to try and take the pain I feel. To hide the fear, the grief and the guilt I've been holding for so many days. And I keep going till time is lost and the room is just spinning around me.